Rant Thread

CrystalKitten · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 1:13 pm

It won't stop... I'm even beyond trying to think of excuses for feeling this way now... Just make it stop... I have a paper to finish

Now I'm crying.. for no reason.. and jittery... and feel.. strange... Just want it to stop...

Miyon · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 1:14 pm

CrystalKitten wrote:

It won't stop... I'm even beyond trying to think of excuses for feeling this way now... Just make it stop... I have a paper to finish

Now I'm crying.. for no reason.. and jittery... and feel.. strange... Just want it to stop...

Hey.. have some hugs and some oreo cake..

CrystalKitten · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 1:34 pm

Miyon wrote:

CrystalKitten wrote:

It won't stop... I'm even beyond trying to think of excuses for feeling this way now... Just make it stop... I have a paper to finish

Now I'm crying.. for no reason.. and jittery... and feel.. strange... Just want it to stop...

Hey.. have some hugs and some oreo cake..

Thanks

Honestly though, I have tried cake (left over from my birthday) >.> Didn't work much... And I hugged my kitty... but then she ran away

If I can just get this paper finished... I can take a break for the afternoon/night and hit things (band hero), or maybe even give in and try skyrim... but it's SOOO hard to concentrate... This paper should be going really fast. I have all my points I want to use from the articles... All I have to do is organize them, and put them into sentences with some of my own commentary... But noooo. Got a full page done yesterday in an hour even with being distracted.. and now I can't concentrate at ALL because my brain decided it wants to hate me this week.

Miyon · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 1:38 pm

That's what assignments in general are for me.. Or just regular tasks at school. It's due to me having severe troubles concentrating and pay attention to things. I know it's rough

When did you say it was due?

CrystalKitten · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 2:01 pm

It's due on monday. It's really not that bad when I can actually get a stream of work done on it. It just sucks because I know that the anxiety has no apparent cause.. if it did.. I could use the jerk-o-lantern to help... :/

GormanGhaste · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 4:59 pm

try taking a walk, maybe? it usually helps calm me down.

CrystalKitten · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 5:18 pm

GormanGhaste wrote:

try taking a walk, maybe? it usually helps calm me down.

Walks aren't generally good when I'm in these moods. They provide no mental stimulation and therefore let my mind go crazy with wondering why I'm feeling this way. I've tried it before, heh. The best thing to do is to TRY and constantly cheer myself up and keep myself productive... It's hard.. but possible.. Still.. takes about 10x as long to get anything done though

Shalyth · **Posted:** Sat Mar 24, 2012 11:15 pm

Im itching for an RP. A Pokemon RP or an RP where im allowed to be a Wolf Anthro. I dont want my wolf-anthro to have a human form or a wolf form, i just wanna be a freaking wolf-anthro *curses other sites RP threads for having wolf only or werewolf RP's*

For the pokemon one, im torn between two pokemon.. i really wanna be a zangoose but i dont know how i can pick up things or write since they dont have fingers.. just two claws and a stubby thumb.. other pokemon is a zoroark but i cant seem to get the awesomeness feeling out of it like i do when i think about my zangoose. Which is sad cause im obsessed with zoroark. I have a zoroark action figure.. i luvs them to death <3

Talaridan · **Posted:** Sun Mar 25, 2012 9:01 am

CrystalKitten wrote:

GormanGhaste wrote:

try taking a walk, maybe? it usually helps calm me down.

Walks aren't generally good when I'm in these moods. They provide no mental stimulation and therefore let my mind go crazy with wondering why I'm feeling this way. I've tried it before, heh. The best thing to do is to TRY and constantly cheer myself up and keep myself productive... It's hard.. but possible.. Still.. takes about 10x as long to get anything done though

Awww...

Have you tried maybe some good upbeat music? Sometimes that really helps me when I'm down or upset. I don't think I have it quite as bad, but I have my moods and sometimes I just feel...awful. No real rhyme or reason; nothing bad really happens. I just get the blues and get so self-doubting I work myself into crying, which I tell myself is silly. I can't seem to help it though.

For me, writing and music seem to offer some good stimulation to work me out of a 'funk'.

Talaridan · **Posted:** Sun Mar 25, 2012 9:06 am

Ugh, why am I such a wussy?

I want to draw. Badly. I love art. I love looking at art. I think of all these neat little things I'd love to draw involving my characters....

But I'm afraid to pick up a damn pencil and draw. Why in the world am I scared? No one is going to see. There's no one to laugh unless I show them to people.

But I'm embarrassed to even try, which doesn't even make sense. The only adult that might see them is my significant other and I don't think for a minute he'd be anything other than supportive, but part of me is half-terrified he'll 'catch' me and laugh his backside off... I know he wouldn't but its still a fear.

Ugh, damn stupid messed-up childhood and former marriage. I wish I had more self-confidence.

CrystalKitten · **Posted:** Sun Mar 25, 2012 10:28 am

Talaridan wrote:

Awww...

Have you tried maybe some good upbeat music? Sometimes that really helps me when I'm down or upset. I don't think I have it quite as bad, but I have my moods and sometimes I just feel...awful. No real rhyme or reason; nothing bad really happens. I just get the blues and get so self-doubting I work myself into crying, which I tell myself is silly. I can't seem to help it though.

For me, writing and music seem to offer some good stimulation to work me out of a 'funk'.

It's easy to make it go away briefly... With gaming, or reading, or whatever. I mean.. this mood started on Wednesday.. Guy I'm seeing came over, and things were great for about half a day after he left.. then it sank in again.. Playing Band Hero drums helps (I.. almost go into like a trance, where my body instinctively reacts to the "notes" I see on the screen) but again.. the effect fades a while after I stop... Same goes for any games, or if I get really into school work I'll be fine... until I'm not. Some people have said i should seek medical help, but honestly... I CAN deal with it. I just need to vent, because I find that it almost helps ground me. Talking to OTHERS about how I know that the issues aren't actually there seems more "real" than just trying to tell myself. And I don't want to risk changing the times when I DO feel good by having the doctors try and stick me on meds, heh. The good thing is that this guy I'm seeing seems fine with me venting at him. Says that if it helps, he's got no problem with it, because it's not like it's "work" for him (especially since I don't always need a response.. so I just "pretend" I'm chatting with him on gtalk when he's likely actually afk or busy, heh). It just sucks when it happens during times like this, when I have stuff I need to do, heh. At least I got my paper done... Now I'm being bad an playing skyrim... Should probably clean today too

But I don't want to do that... I wonder if he'll come over today...

Doctress · **Posted:** Sun Mar 25, 2012 10:42 am

CrystalKitten wrote:

Talaridan wrote:

Awww...

Have you tried maybe some good upbeat music? Sometimes that really helps me when I'm down or upset. I don't think I have it quite as bad, but I have my moods and sometimes I just feel...awful. No real rhyme or reason; nothing bad really happens. I just get the blues and get so self-doubting I work myself into crying, which I tell myself is silly. I can't seem to help it though.

For me, writing and music seem to offer some good stimulation to work me out of a 'funk'.

It's easy to make it go away briefly... With gaming, or reading, or whatever. I mean.. this mood started on Wednesday.. Guy I'm seeing came over, and things were great for about half a day after he left.. then it sank in again.. Playing Band Hero drums helps (I.. almost go into like a trance, where my body instinctively reacts to the "notes" I see on the screen) but again.. the effect fades a while after I stop... Same goes for any games, or if I get really into school work I'll be fine... until I'm not. Some people have said i should seek medical help, but honestly... I CAN deal with it. I just need to vent, because I find that it almost helps ground me. Talking to OTHERS about how I know that the issues aren't actually there seems more "real" than just trying to tell myself. And I don't want to risk changing the times when I DO feel good by having the doctors try and stick me on meds, heh. The good thing is that this guy I'm seeing seems fine with me venting at him. Says that if it helps, he's got no problem with it, because it's not like it's "work" for him (especially since I don't always need a response.. so I just "pretend" I'm chatting with him on gtalk when he's likely actually afk or busy, heh). It just sucks when it happens during times like this, when I have stuff I need to do, heh. At least I got my paper done... Now I'm being bad an playing skyrim... Should probably clean today too

But I don't want to do that... I wonder if he'll come over today...

Sometimes all we need to do is break our work up into little pieces, its what I do and I've got about 5 pages of a 10page paper done already. Another good thing to do is like you said vent, sometimes just talking about it helps AND(trust me on this) if the guy your seeing comes over see if he'll just lay with you. Nothing sexual or anything like that but just laying next to someone you feel attached to, cuddling what have you, can reduce stress and brighten your mood. Maybe even take a nap together let your body rest while you have the comfort of someone else beside you. That what I like to do and it normally works wonders.

CrystalKitten · **Posted:** Sun Mar 25, 2012 12:21 pm

Yeah, well, the thing is I don't think it is because of the amount of work I have to do.. and I'm not sure he's going to be coming over today

I don't want to ask him (even though I'm sure he'd say I just should) just because we're TRYING to take things slow emotionally until we figure certain things out... and so.. I dunno, I know want to make him feel pressured into coming. Plus.. he's trying to take the day to get ahead on assignments and stuff.. WHICH.. could mean more visits, more frequently later... He's still chatting with me though, which is helping. I said that cuddling would be pretty awesome today, but that chatting is almost as good, especially if I curl up in bed and have a disney marathon... So... that way he'll know that I'd especially appreciate if he DID have time to come hang out.. but hopefully not feel pressured to do so.

It just really sucks. I DID finish my paper. So I mean.. I don't even know why my body is doing this... I feel like MAYBE I just haven't been sleeping well.. but I'm not sure... I don't always know when I haven't been sleeping well.. other than the crankiness.. I just honestly wish it would stop. It's so bad right now that I've been up since before 8, haven't eaten ANYTHING, and am not even hungry... Not only that.. I almost threw up yesterday... I have no idea why the anxiety is this bad right now...

Talaridan · **Posted:** Sun Mar 25, 2012 12:41 pm

*hugs Crystal*

Worba · **Posted:** Sun Mar 25, 2012 3:04 pm

/taps RNG

"Is this thing on?"

:roll:

Shalyth · **Posted:** Mon Mar 26, 2012 3:48 am

For a few days now i keep feeling pains of loss when i see pictures of Lucky and it makes me cry.. I couldnt even bear to watch a quarter of a video i fould of him rolling around on the ground like his usual derp self. I miss him ._. i miss him so much.. i didnt want to go to bed like this but its really late and i need sleep. Janie's getting anxious to sleep too and keeps jumping onto my back. I want him back so badly.. i want him and Janie and Tamika all together with me as one big family..

Miyon · **Posted:** Mon Mar 26, 2012 3:54 am

Xakaal wrote:

For a few days now i keep feeling pains of loss when i see pictures of Lucky and it makes me cry.. I couldnt even bear to watch a quarter of a video i fould of him rolling around on the ground like his usual derp self. I miss him ._. i miss him so much.. i didnt want to go to bed like this but its really late and i need sleep. Janie's getting anxious to sleep too and keeps jumping onto my back. I want him back so badly.. i want him and Janie and Tamika all together with me as one big family..

I miss my dear ones too.. It's never easy.

cowmuflage · **Posted:** Mon Mar 26, 2012 3:58 am

Xakaal wrote:

For a few days now i keep feeling pains of loss when i see pictures of Lucky and it makes me cry.. I couldnt even bear to watch a quarter of a video i fould of him rolling around on the ground like his usual derp self. I miss him ._. i miss him so much.. i didnt want to go to bed like this but its really late and i need sleep. Janie's getting anxious to sleep too and keeps jumping onto my back. I want him back so badly.. i want him and Janie and Tamika all together with me as one big family..

I know how you feel. Where Sylvester was laid to rest is right outside the upstairs bathroom window so when ever I shower (it's better than the one downstairs near my room) I see him under his favorite sleeping tree. :s But quite frankly I would not want him back if he was the same as he was the week and a bit before he passed he was not good then. Gah it's only been a week and a bit before he passed D: was only the 14th and yet it feels like months have passed.

My rant is periods suck balls. Why can't men like have them and stuff.

Miyon · **Posted:** Mon Mar 26, 2012 4:00 am

Having two periods a month sucks. Just waiting for my third now

cowmuflage · **Posted:** Mon Mar 26, 2012 4:01 am

Miyon wrote:

Having two periods a month sucks. Just waiting for my third now

Are you having other peoples or something :lol:

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