Rant Thread

[cowmuflage]

I'd like some sun right now. I can beraly hear the tv right now becouse the rains so heavy. XD Yet I can still see my next door neighbour's cat sitting out in the rain! He must be soaked!

[Chimera]

*saves cat* i hate when people leave their pets out in bad weather, i hope its just by accident and they may be out or something or unable to check to see if the poor thing is outside at the moment rather then cause they're too lazy to get up and let it in or they're purposely leaving it out there cause they dont want it in the house

[Miyon]

We're entering spring and as you can see in the video we had a patch of snow and everything else was rain, we had hail on the way to the mall, then a bit of sunshine before it clouded back over and began to rain, and now its starting to clear up in a way where its still cloudy but the sun's peeking through a little bit and theres no rain for the moment XD

Skyrim.. pokemon.. skyrim.. pokemon.. i miss my zangoose and sevipers but i dont feel like whipping out the DS.. oh if only i could play it on the computer ._.

I think this is the best I can offer you at the time..

Pokemon

[cowmuflage]

*saves cat* i hate when people leave their pets out in bad weather, i hope its just by accident and they may be out or something or unable to check to see if the poor thing is outside at the moment rather then cause they're too lazy to get up and let it in or they're purposely leaving it out there cause they dont want it in the house

Oh no your getting it wrong the doors wide open he can get inside if he wants too he just seems not to want too Sylvester used to do that aswell even when he was really old he'd do that and we would have to dry him off with a teatowl XD I hope if we get a new cat they will let us try them off like that. No one likes wet cat smell! More so when they are really old as old cat smell + wet cat smell = oh god kill me now!

[Chimera]

Oh no your getting it wrong the doors wide open he can get inside if he wants too he just seems not to want too Sylvester used to do that aswell even when he was really old he'd do that and we would have to dry him off with a teatowl XD I hope if we get a new cat they will let us try them off like that. No one likes wet cat smell! More so when they are really old as old cat smell + wet cat smell = oh god kill me now!

OOOOHHHH /facepalm at cat

and pokemon tower defence doesnt really seem much like my thing :/ i'll just stick to mah handheld versions :3 thanks tho <3

[cowmuflage]

I thought someone was breaking into our house today but it was just the power meter reader guy

[CrystalKitten]

Not sure if this is a rant... or a happy post >.> But.. I'll stick with rant, hah.

Had a sudden spike of anxiety for absolutely no reason. Mentioned it to the guy I've started seeing (we still aren't sure what we're calling ourselves... just because there's things we have to talk about before we can consider each other bf/gf)... and he said "Well, good news, maybe this will cheer you up! I've decided I can come over tonight! Probably for around 10"

*looks at clock, see's it's 8pm*
*looks at pile of gross dirty dishes in my room*
*looks at massive pile of clothes on the bed*
*looks at 45 page article I want to have read by the end of the night*

He says "want me to come?"

*looks at room*

what the hell... "sure "

*scrambles to get shit done*

[Azunara]

I wish I wasn't mentally unstable and could let go of harmful relationships...

[Senna-Umbreon]

Why in the world am I so freaking lazy? I need to get off my lazy butt and reply to people on dA >.< Why it's such a hassle to get around to doing.. I DON'T KNOW AUGBHFXDZSGXTHDBRGTEJ *Dies*

[Miyon]

This is hopeless.. I'll never be able to conjure up 10 pages for that stupid assignment that is due tomorrow.. And to top it all of, it's about translating stuff.. Just writing about translating stuff will be top 2 pages.. Blehblehblehbleh. I need to see if I can get the deadline postponed..

[CrystalKitten]

I want to play skyrim damnit! Just bought it with the last of my birthday money (was going to pay back the guy I'm seeing, for reading week.. but he refused to take my birthday money.. said I HAD to spend it on something fun). Picked it up used for $50. I can't let myself play it until after finals though

[Worba]

I want to play skyrim damnit! Just bought it with the last of my birthday money (was going to pay back the guy I'm seeing, for reading week.. but he refused to take my birthday money.. said I HAD to spend it on something fun). Picked it up used for $50. I can't let myself play it until after finals though

You have iron will.

Was I you it would have gone more like:

*significant other wants to come over but laundry all over and studying to do*
*put in one load of laundry, spend rest of the time playing wow except when I see their car pull in*
*frantically stuff mess into closet, pretend not there*

*bought skyrim but have finals coming up*
*finals?*

Etc

[cowmuflage]

Why am I colouring in this Spirit beast I fucking hate spirit beasts........ It just happens to be in a old drawing I wanted to colour

[CrystalKitten]

Was freaking out about something all day. I'm not sure if it was because I woke up in a bad mood, and was looking for a reason why I'd be feeling that wya, or if my thoughts caused my bad mood.. But it was bad enough that I almost started crying in lecture for no reason. Came home after my first and played band hero drums... it helped a bit... Can't talk about until I'm not sure when... And.. it's kind of worrying me.. My thoughts on the general issue were actually going REALLY well.. and this one thing could be the thing that will make it not work And the thing is.. My concerns are COMPLETELY reasonable and legitimate.. And I'm WILLING to give him.. not compromises.. or alternatives.. but kind of. I'm just not sure if it would be enough...

[Makoes]

I got up at 10am. Discovered my 2yr old kid had thrown up during the night. Had to give her a bath, then feed her, she was really really tired and kept falling back asleep. Cuddled on the couch with her on my chest for a long time, then let her beg toast crusts from her daddy. I made her lunch, and then went in to clean up the crib, went and did laundry. still have a stuffy to wash that cant go in the machine. I havent had anything myself to eat aside from getting a cup of coffee into me. I've polayed music for my kid, danced around with her, and gotten her to say the names of things she saw on treehouse (kids tv station). Finally at 1pm, I sit down at my computer to read the forums, and my BF (her Dad) starts going on about how I shouldnt be at my computer while our daughter is sick...
HE has been on his computer ALL morning. HE has been sitting there reading comics, looking stuff up, and generally NOT being a helpful parent! He has had breakfast, the only thing he did was bring me coffee when our daughter was sleeping on me, Even when he gave her the toast crust he told her to go sit down...away from him.

But heaven Fing forbid that after everything I've done, that I might want to sit at my computer and take a moment for myself! He doesnt work till 6pm tonight, he can get off his ass and play Dad for a bit!
Yes, our kid is not feeliong well...but me wearing myself out so he can relaxe infront of his computer...Fck no! I am going ot relaxe and he can play parent and watch her for a bit, its not like the computer is in another room, its in the living room, we're in an apartment. Not exactly that far away should I be NEEDED (not wanted, NEEDED).

[AdamSavage]

I seriously need to get out of washing dish's or even the Restaurant business period. I'm really fed up with washing dishes, and the BS that comes with it. Apparently I'm required to go to this "All staff" meeting on Sunday MORNING @ 8:30am...I work Friday - Sunday till close, and I don't normally leave the place till 12:30am ish and you want me back there @ 8:30am? All this so we can all talk about stuff that has absolutely nothing to do with me at all...Topics: Steak Promotion, Early Week Promotions, Service Guarantee, Guest Recovery. Explain how any of these have anything to do with washing dishes....

[Atalanta]

So... yeah, that's it. I'm making a doctor appointment and gonna try getting myself a psychiatrist again. I can't deal with everything I have to day to day and also... this. God, I need you. I can't live without your love, without looking forward to the next time you're going to hold me. I just can't. I'm not eating properly. I've already lost a lot of weight and my family think I'm unwell. I've barely slept. I just wake up and cry because I feel so unsafe and alone. I just want one freaking day where my eyes aren't wet. Where I wake up and I'm glad to be alive. Where I stop needing you so much.

Love has broken me, in every way possible.

[Talaridan]

So... yeah, that's it. I'm making a doctor appointment and gonna try getting myself a psychiatrist again. I can't deal with everything I have to day to day and also... this. God, I need you. I can't live without your love, without looking forward to the next time you're going to hold me. I just can't. I'm not eating properly. I've already lost a lot of weight and my family think I'm unwell. I've barely slept. I just wake up and cry because I feel so unsafe and alone. I just want one freaking day where my eyes aren't wet. Where I wake up and I'm glad to be alive. Where I stop needing you so much.

Love has broken me, in every way possible.

Oh dear. I'm sorry...

[CrystalKitten]

My mood has definitely cycled down... And I don't know what to do about it. I can think of excuses for my mood if I TRY... but they aren't anything to cause this much.. anxiety. I'm almost shaking. My eyes constantly feel like they're on the verge of shedding tears. My head has that... feeling. Like my brain is trembling... I don't know if those of you that have anxiety problems know what I'm talking about.. But it's like my brain and heart are trembling. And even though I KNOW that all my "excuses" for feeling down are... maybe not "wrong".. But I have them rationalized.

The one is all the assignments I have to do. I have 4 papers due in the next 2 weeks. But one is already done, and the final submitted. Another is a group thing, and it's waiting on the peer reviews... Another is another group one that's due in 2 weeks, but there's 3 of us to work on it... And the last is my evolution paper.. which is due on monday.. but the writing is going pretty fast.

Then there's exams coming up. Just a few weeks left, and my schedule IS pretty shitty.. but I'm not exactly totally screwed, as after I finish this evolution paper, I can REALLY start studying hardcore. I'll still be starting studying a lot sooner than others.

Then there's the one issue I'm really worried about with the guy I'm seeing. He made it seem like something that could end everything... But.. that was because he didn't think my concerns were valid, and that I had them for the wrong reasons.. Which I know now isn't true... And I HAVE come up with.. while not exactly compromises, things that I CAN give him on the issue, I just don't know if it would be enough. I hope so, because I was starting to feel like things could actually work. But, even if it isn't... then I KNOW it shouldn't be a big deal.. because it's a BIG thing, and if he's not okay with my conclusions/thoughts... then there's nothing I can do about it... right...? I mean I'm coming to be okay with A LOT.. but not this.. not unless he can meet my requirements, which I think are reasonable... So it shouldn't be a big deal... Not only that but when the issue initially came up... We decided it was something we had to talk about more, but that things were still good between us... Which makes me feel that I SHOULD be okay with this, since that statement shows that pretty much.. if my concerns are valid, and not just the other thing.. then we'll work something out together.

It's just this stupid freaking mood cycling down. It needs to stop. I feel WRONG and it's making me see severe problems where I KNOW there aren't any. I hate the trembling feeling I get inside my body... like every part of me from the inside out just wants to shake, or blow apart... And there's no reason for it. What prompted this rant was when I was actually right in the middle of writing my paper. I wasn't even THINKING about anything else when the trembly and tearing up started... I HATE this... I want it to STOP. Once it passes.. I know things will be fine.. and I'll go back to being happy with my schoolwork, and the people I'm just starting to actually call friends, and the guy I'm seeing, and my INCREDIBLE $100 birthday (skyrim, xbox drums, band hero, Dragonage 2.. REALLY not bad for just being given $100).... And I just had my awesome birthday weekend... And things are GOOD. I KNOW things are good.. I was INCREDIBLY happy not even a week ago... And nothing has changed since then...

And so I come to the conclusion that this is just my mood cycling. Some strangeness in my physiology or something, probably. I just hate it. I want the trembling feelings to go away, and the tears to stop. I want to go back to being happy with my schoolwork, and this guy I'm seeing, and my friends... I wonder how long it will last this time

Edit: Another annoying symptom of the inexplicable anxiety? I'm in and out of the bathroom right now every damn half an hour... It's really not cool Even if I don't drink anything, or eat anything...

[Miyon]

Peasants are stupid, throw cows at them.