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Kalliope wrote:
I know the feeling!

At least this is the good kind of frustration.

yesssss

also this fire makes my lungs ache which makes my heart ache and also makes my head hurt. go away fire.

We almost had a tonado around our house it turns out and now it just started to rain HARD.
and now im scared

I bought some new earrings today to put in my second holes since I've been needing some for a while. Sure enough the holes had closed up though, so I just spent 20 minutes pretty much forcing the earrings through. Hurt like fuck but at least they're in now. xD

Rats! Got my first Mysterious Camel Figurine, and it was dust. It also took FOREVER to find!

I am literally between tears and wanting to punch a hole in the wall out of frustration!

After all my research and spending $200 on a graphics card for my new computer back in Feb. (given as a gift and equipped with an intergrated video card not ideal for WoW play), I can't get the damn thing to work! Without the card, my computer runs just fine (WoW being the exception) but with it, I experience random lock-ups, shutdowns, visual static, etc.

I contacted Nvidia support (sometime in April) which ended up as a two month-long back and forth coorespondence involving troubleshooting tactics that led me nowhere. Eventually, I was sent a replacement card but I seem to be having issues with it as well (Windows loads but doesn't progress to my sign-in screen), which only further crushes my spirits. I don't know what I am doing wrong and I've done everything I can think of (and even what the Nvidia tech. had advised). I don't have the money to hire someone more savvy to install the card and driver for me and I'm pissed off at myself because this honestly shouldn't be as complicated as it has turned out to be.

Gameplay is just too torturous without the card. My fps ranges anywhere between 1 and 10 (10-12 on a really, really good day with almost no one else on the server).

I'd simply take a break from the game if it were that simple ...

1. I hate the idea of my investment on the graphics card going to waste.
2. I reactivated my WoW subscription back in Feb. when I bought the card = more money down the drain.
3. I'd really, REALLY like to work on my hunters, Synestra and Kadija, and finish up their stables.
4. My husband is currently on dialysis for 11 hours a day and works 6-8 hours. The rest of the day is divided between commuting, sleep, and the occasional doctor's appointments. This leaves us very little time, if any, to be together. We basically live paycheck to paycheck now so there's not very much money for fun stuff like dinners out and movies on our days off. WoW was something I had for myself, something I could do at the end of the day, once my husband was asleep, to help take my mind off of things and just have fun.

I am still pretty pissed off but I do appreciate the opportunity to vent my frustrations out here in the forums (even if nobody really cares).

Thanks for listening peeps.

On another note, my Grandfather's fight with cancer is nearing its end so I will be spending as much time as I can with him before he passes away. I think the stress and grief I am experiencing over this only further adds to my frustration because I use gaming as a means to relax and relieve tension.

I am sleeping in a chair. A freaking chair in a freaking hotel room because we got freaking evacuated. God damn.

Im really nervous about how family is gonna react when i get everything organized and prepared and then tell family im moving.. its gonna be to illinois and i live in bc, canada.. long long ways away.. two plane trips since the first one lands in chicago and i gotta take another one. Also really tearing myself up mentally cause ive lost my feelings for bf. Hes a great guy but hes what i wanted in highschool.

Hes everything i wanted but hes not what i need. We're both turning 20 this year and i have a college fund, he doesnt. He didnt graduate highschool and he blows his paychecks on cosplays and plans (which always fall through casue of no money) to see ppl who live in different provinces even though he knows im extremely uncomfortable with him seeing the one girl he almost hooked up with before he met me (it didnt have a chance to happen between them cause she lives in manitoba) and also to go to ontario or to the states when the different Con events happen.

Im dying here, i feel like i want to cry till my eyes dry out, we've been really close for almost 2 years and im terrified of how he would handle me breaking up with him, hes completely oblivious and is still madly in love with me. Yet at the same time the knowledge that i'll have a hugely better life with my friend who lives in illinois, whos also working damn hard to figure out all the technical issues like getting me a job, place to stay, a way to pay the rent and bills and food, and plane tickets down there and im working as hard as i can with what knowledge i have (which is very little sadly, luckily he makes up for everything im lacking) to try and build up the money needed, which isnt that much luckily, to get down there and how i would get down there (planes pretty much, ive never been to an airport alone before).

I just really hope i can get support from my family, im terrified they may go nuts at me like i just completely lost my mind and that i was getting into something that i know nothing of. Like, i know its extreme, and that its hugely life altering and my life up here will be gone for the most part and that i'll need to make a new one down there but like, we've been planning for longer then ive let out, ive only really been making a little mention here and there recently because there was just so much to figure out but its actually really coming together now.

I trust my friend, i wholly trust him and we've been talking in-game, on vent, on facebook for a long time now and it wasnt like we just jumped into it, we were just mere friends for quite a while and then it started to go somewhere. Im not jumping into it blindly oh no no, for years actually, ive been wanting my own place and to do things on my own etc, etc. and i know that if i ever move somewhere that im new to, its gonna be hard, but, if my family supports my decision in that they will give me a life incase i have to move back home, then i know that i'll have two homes then and that im not alone, that im not gonna be stuck in a place i know nothing about. Yes also, im taking steps to try and aquire enough money to be financially secure no matter what happens.

If I need to move back home i know i will have the money to do so. Or if everythings going alright, i know i have enough money to live on until i can gain a proper source of income. With the help of my friend i should be perfectly stable in a months time when i go down there and if things dont work out, i have the money to come back home. I just hope again, that i'll have the support of the family in this decision. After all, dad did say if i were to go to college and pass with high grades he'll give me a 2-way ticket to australia (ive wanted to go there since i was a child) since he has family i could live with out there till i was stable. I think he'd agree to a 2 hour time difference instead of a 16 hour one eh?

Here I am, laptoping. All of a sudden, the cat decides she's going to tromp all over my keyboard. Like any good laptop owner (IT'S ALL I HAVE), I picked her up. Except kitty doesn't like that. She freaks out, leaps away and slashes me on my chest, close to the neck/collarbone area.

At first, I'm like, "Whatever, stupid cat." but then I notice it's bleeding quite nicely now. So I have to go prevent bleeding, place neosporin on it (Paaaaain. D:) and a band-aid. So now I have this band-aid on by my collarbone. :p

Stupid jerkface cat.

I know how you feel Azu. I typically only sleep in a pair of underwear or shorts and my bf and I's bed is right under the window. Every now and then our cat gets really stupid and decides she wants to jump in and out of the window all night. I guess the bf got sick of this one night (I was sound asleep) and he went to grab the cat as she was going in the window. This somehow resulted in me getting a slash in my back from the outside of my left shoulder blade all the way to the center of my back. Certainly woke me up! Strangely it didn't bleed much.

I hate exams. Useless ones at that.

Had no sleep last night and I have to hand in my colouring work and have a meeting over skype at school today with some big nickolodeon animation guy :S I hope I don't fall asleep!

TygerDarkstorm wrote:I know how you feel Azu. I typically only sleep in a pair of underwear or shorts and my bf and I's bed is right under the window. Every now and then our cat gets really stupid and decides she wants to jump in and out of the window all night. I guess the bf got sick of this one night (I was sound asleep) and he went to grab the cat as she was going in the window. This somehow resulted in me getting a slash in my back from the outside of my left shoulder blade all the way to the center of my back. Certainly woke me up! Strangely it didn't bleed much.

Oh, that sounds fun. D:

Yeah, it sucked. I went from sleeping peacefully to "OW OMGWTF?!" XD

Just made the hardest decision of her life (though its not like ive made hard decisions that are anywhere near this bad since im only 19 1/2)

edit: im praying right now i made the right choice, but all in all i just hope he can understand and hopefully, maybe, have the same mindset as me

Another edit: Y'know what? If i dont end up moving to illinois and bf doesnt have the same mindset as me, ive pretty much just fucked my life over.

Dont think of it as fucking your life over Xakaal. Think of it more as shedding the chains that bind you, spreading your wings wide and seeing where the wind will take you!

Hes the only thing thats been keeping me going tho, i met him after i graduated highschool which was a hell of a time and ive been happier then ive ever been because of him until i started to realize hes what i want but not what i need.

Thing is though, that wouldnt normally bother me if everything else was going right because i know that if he isnt the one then he isnt the one, we'll find someone else in time but im partially dependent on him because he does have a job and ive been turned down left and right by stores and in interviews and my college fund is almost about to expire, thats 20 grand going down the drain that my mom saved up before she passed away and im not even able to get into college yet.

I was gonna pull what money i could get from the fund out to use as rent/food/plane fare to get to and live in illinois with my WoW guildy who is doing everything he can on his side to make the process as easy and stress free as we can. He already said he can get me working right away cause he knows a few contacts to places that dont require any experience, i'll have a home to live in thats rent free to help me along in getting a place of my own, and hes checking out everything he can to help get me assistance so the bills will be lower (i never heard of such a thing before so im not 100% sure exactly what kinds of assistance there is and such).

Pretty much as i said, if i cant get to illinois and things turn sour between my bf and i, im gonna be screwed over real bad

Edit: Got text messages from him just a little while ago (i know i should of waited till i could of seen him but i was getting sick so i had to text him, i still feel too sick to eat right now) and hes.. really calm.. its kinda scaring me.. either he had the same idea that he couldnt really see a serious relationship with me or hes in shock right now, or has acted calm in the text and is going through a horrible emotional turmoil right now... and its killing me cause i didnt say i was breaking up with him, i told him i still, if he wants me to be his gf still that i would so the fact hes not answering my txts is kinda worrying and i keep crying about it

>:(

What I thought was the exit of Mt. Mortar was actually the entrance. Dammit. D:

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Pissed off, couple of weirdos show up at my house at like 7 am. After I heard my dogs barking all night. They claimed to have been walking from the next town over and then they said they slept at the lake behind our house. I fucking hate the idea of people skulking around my property at night ><.