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I wish I was less of a spineless pushover. It'd be great to tell some people I hate them and wish they'd just go away. Or I wish I could make myself stay away. Y I NO HAVE WILLPOWER

God dammit. Can I get a spine? Please? Ugh I'm so freaking scared of making people angry that if I do I'm in freaking tears.

Why am I so tired. This is not okay. Should not be so tired.

Some days I wish they'd make a Silent hill movie and a Resident evil movie that was like you know the GAMES.


>.> Who ever thought that Mary sue Alice was a good idea needs to die she's not even in any games! Also why make the lead in a game based of the first Silent hill game a woman? In the game you are a dad looking for his daughter not a mum. Also the 2nd movie is based of the 3rd game and that's my fav one and after seeing the trailer is just..... No. Pyramid head why you in it?

Stepdad, stop the fuck hovering over my shoulder. You are making my already complete-nerve-wracked brain into a burning pile of smoldering mush. Thanks to you, in less then 10min my nervousness has turned into a full blown throbbing headache, im tons more frustrated then before you started, i feel nauseated, im royally pissed off and severely irritated, i feel like im running a flipping fever im so hot, i just had a cool shower to calm down and i feel like im soaked with sweat even though i did dry myself off completely after my shower. Ugh i feel so fucking disgusting i just want to crawl into a hole and die.

Im so fucking rough right now im in total shambles. Im shaking and i cant think right now. And all he did was hover over my shoulder without end and stop me from turning pages to look at different ads cause he wanted to read the stupid fucking thing three fucking hundred times over AND read them aloud everytime he went through it. Like, i click a page to read and before i can start reading he starts saying it aloud like a fucking childrens book. IM TRYING TO READ IT FOR GODS SAKE, STOP SAYING IT ALOUD< YOUR GIVING ME A HEADACHE.

FML.

Im ready to just cry right now its so bad. Why the fuck cant i handle even just the least bit of stress. Everything, anything, everything and anything stress inducing breaks me down into a pile of mush and makes it impossible for me to do anything at all. No wonder i kept losing my jobs and why no one will hire me. If i could handle even just a wee bit of stress maybe i wouldnt be in this god damned position begging the government to give me money to stay off the god damn street.

Xakaal wrote:Stepdad, stop the fuck hovering over my shoulder. You are making my already complete-nerve-wracked brain into a burning pile of smoldering mush. Thanks to you, in less then 10min my nervousness has turned into a full blown throbbing headache, im tons more frustrated then before you started, i feel nauseated, im royally pissed off and severely irritated, i feel like im running a flipping fever im so hot, i just had a cool shower to calm down and i feel like im soaked with sweat even though i did dry myself off completely after my shower. Ugh i feel so fucking disgusting i just want to crawl into a hole and die.

Im so fucking rough right now im in total shambles. Im shaking and i cant think right now. And all he did was hover over my shoulder without end and stop me from turning pages to look at different ads cause he wanted to read the stupid fucking thing three fucking hundred times over AND read them aloud everytime he went through it. Like, i click a page to read and before i can start reading he starts saying it aloud like a fucking childrens book. IM TRYING TO READ IT FOR GODS SAKE, STOP SAYING IT ALOUD< YOUR GIVING ME A HEADACHE.

FML.

Im ready to just cry right now its so bad. Why the fuck cant i handle even just the least bit of stress. Everything, anything, everything and anything stress inducing breaks me down into a pile of mush and makes it impossible for me to do anything at all. No wonder i kept losing my jobs and why no one will hire me. If i could handle even just a wee bit of stress maybe i wouldnt be in this god damned position begging the government to give me money to stay off the god damn street.

AS I told you in Magi-stream, You are epic and Awesome.
and you should go listen to that song (and the rest of the sound track) some more.

Xakaal wrote:Stepdad, stop the fuck hovering over my shoulder. You are making my already complete-nerve-wracked brain into a burning pile of smoldering mush. Thanks to you, in less then 10min my nervousness has turned into a full blown throbbing headache, im tons more frustrated then before you started, i feel nauseated, im royally pissed off and severely irritated, i feel like im running a flipping fever im so hot, i just had a cool shower to calm down and i feel like im soaked with sweat even though i did dry myself off completely after my shower. Ugh i feel so fucking disgusting i just want to crawl into a hole and die.

Just tell him to bugger off. I tell people when they do something annoying all the time and I get irritated super-easy. Or just ask him nicely not to do it.

Everdeen wrote:

Xakaal wrote:Stepdad, stop the fuck hovering over my shoulder. You are making my already complete-nerve-wracked brain into a burning pile of smoldering mush. Thanks to you, in less then 10min my nervousness has turned into a full blown throbbing headache, im tons more frustrated then before you started, i feel nauseated, im royally pissed off and severely irritated, i feel like im running a flipping fever im so hot, i just had a cool shower to calm down and i feel like im soaked with sweat even though i did dry myself off completely after my shower. Ugh i feel so fucking disgusting i just want to crawl into a hole and die.

Just tell him to bugger off. I tell people when they do something annoying all the time and I get irritated super-easy. Or just ask him nicely not to do it.

Ugh, that's one of my biggest pet peeves when people just hang over my shoulder watching my screen. I like going to some really random page with something weird until they feel uncomfortable and don't want to look at it anymore.

Vephriel wrote:

Everdeen wrote:

Xakaal wrote:Stepdad, stop the fuck hovering over my shoulder. You are making my already complete-nerve-wracked brain into a burning pile of smoldering mush. Thanks to you, in less then 10min my nervousness has turned into a full blown throbbing headache, im tons more frustrated then before you started, i feel nauseated, im royally pissed off and severely irritated, i feel like im running a flipping fever im so hot, i just had a cool shower to calm down and i feel like im soaked with sweat even though i did dry myself off completely after my shower. Ugh i feel so fucking disgusting i just want to crawl into a hole and die.

Just tell him to bugger off. I tell people when they do something annoying all the time and I get irritated super-easy. Or just ask him nicely not to do it.

Ugh, that's one of my biggest pet peeves when people just hang over my shoulder watching my screen. I like going to some really random page with something weird until they feel uncomfortable and don't want to look at it anymore.

Just a bit of Goatse.

Also *headdesk*

Oh. Oh hell. Hi self-esteem. Are we going to collapse again? We are. Okay. Thanks for the tip. Oh god. No, no, stop being miserable self, YOU WILL AMOUNT TO SOMETHING ONE DAY.

...just not any time soon.

Edit: nope not any better A Perfect Circle is also not friggen helping. MUSIC Y U SO SAD.

Had to call campus police today on a student that was becoming extremely aggressive and violent in our office. The police caught him before he got away, but I had to fill out all these reports and ID him and...blah....I just kinda want to crawl in bed and cry now that I am home and out of the situation.

Long rant!!

FFS!! Every bloody evening my guy finds something to complain about, some conspiracy theory to go on about and how the worlds going to end, or how the food that was fine for our kid last week, suddenly isn't good for her because he read something says such-and such in it is bad...

currently he's obsessed with 9/11 conspiracies and how wheat isn't good for people. I am siting at my computer playing wow, when out of the blue he says "I don't want you giving Kayla frosted mini-wheat's anymore, they're not good for her, they have no nutritional value, you might as well be feeding her fruit loops".

well, being the person that I am, I hope on over to trusty Google and start looking up whether or not Frosted Mini-wheat's are good for kids, or are healthy...and hey, look, its rated right up there with cheerios and oats are being great foods to feed kids...site after site with the same thing.

But oh-no, that's not good enough for him (screw the dietary professional sites) lets show me one person, a doctor's blog about how he "thinks" wheat is bad, and why. Seriously, he used "I think wheat is bad because..."

I use to feed Kayla baby cereal, and as she got older she liked fruit, so I fed her fruit in the morning, then my Guy wanted her to have more variety, so I feed her cheerios or frosted mini-wheat's with milk, some fruit and then she eats his peanut butter toast crust.

Anyhow it ended up with an escalated fight where I told him how sick I was of his damn conspiracy theories and constant complaining about some random crap every f-ing day and that he should just give it a bloody rest and stop looking for things to bitch about, that he was worse then a woman on her rag for all his whining.

Ended with him yelling about how his family worries that I cant look after our daughter because I don't "worry" enough, or keep a spotless house. No F-ing wonder about what his family things since he says things like "oh our house is a mess because She didn't bother cleaning today" or "Oh she messed up and forgot that we were coming over today, so now she has to stay home and wait for the delivery men to bring the new fridge instead of come to the farmers market with us." (completely ignores the fact that HE was suppose to talk to the landlords about our fridge on the fritz a WEEK ago, and finally I went in a got it done, even if I had remembered about the farmers market at the time of saying 'yes I'll be home' I still would have stayed to get the new fridge since its more important in the long run then one trip to the farmers market...oh and her, they was a working fridge for them to put the food in, do I get a bloody thank you? No...just more bitching!

Nope, I don't have the best memory, nope I am not a spaztastic house cleaner I am looking after my 2yr old and my soon to be 5yr old nephew 5 days a week, then working 2 8hr shifts on the weekend, while playing Mom before and after. the mess in the house is 1/3 mine, 1/3 Kayla's and 1/3 His, but its 100% my problem to clean. Keep the sink clear so i can clean dishes, NOPE! he just tossed them all in, oh and SHARP knives point up because that's just smart...and when I tell him to put them sharp end facing down he tells me "oh just pay attention and you wont get cut". Kid toys on the floor, and he steps on one, suddenly he's trying to throw her toys out cuz she has to many!...Take a bloody page out of your damn book and PAY ATTENTION AND YOU WON'T GET HURT....not so easy is it fcktard?

Then he complains because I don't dress sexy...WTH would I want to dress nice for you, you stupid Fck! He also complains that I spend to much time playing WoW...well, when all you do is whine and complain...wth would I NOT play wow? Really, I can have awesome conversations with my co-workers who play, my guild, random fun people I meet in randoms, and have fun OR...I can listen to you whine bitch and complain about random shit, things you think I am doing wrong, things I didn't do that you wanted me to do (ignoring everything that I DID do), and other wise share in the miserable existence you seems to like bitching about...Screw that, I am playing WoW.

Oh and completely disregard the lunch stuff I got you, the pack of your favorite chocolate bars, the back rubs I give you, the coffee I make every morning for us, and the other services I provide when you need them...

Look, I get it, you are in pain all the time, your hypoglycemic, your bad back from a long ago car accident, and the shitty job we are BOTH in, but stop taking it out on ME! At least I am LOOKING for ways to make our life better, at least I am trying to figure out a way to go back to school to be an electrician so that I can make more money so that you can figure out what you want to do and pursue that...I am trying while you sit there finding things to bitch about!

My biggest short fall...I really hate cleaning, the dishes especially, and laundry is a pain when you have to pay 4 loonies for wash/dry...and every day 2 kids and one adult that should know how to clean up after himself tornadoes the house into a mess and I have to make it spotless...I HATE cleaning...but damn it, every bloody day I at least do more cleaning then YOU!!

Ooh, really needed to blow off some steam there. Would it work, in any way, to even talk to him about how you feel, give him a wake-up call? It's not healthy to live in that, and it doesn't sound like you have a lot to hang on to, except for the kids sake..

Talking doesn't work...it might seem to for a bit, but it never lasts. And he doesn't take responsibility for anything he does. Knife up in the sink, well its my fault for not doing the dishes, if I did the dishes, the knife wouldn't be there to be sticking up (yes, actually conversation we had at one time).

I did talk with one of my friends online, he let me ramble for a bit, and offered advice. I think after the weekend (aka my 2 shifts at work) I will be talking to his parents about whats going on, and asking them for help. he's just gotten so out of hand with the conspiracies, and everything. Something needs to be done because this isn't a healthy relation ship now, nor it is it a good environment for Kayla.
I love the caring Phil, the one that actually use to care about me...and I want to find him again. I am scared, I've been with him for 5yrs and I don't want to break up...but things cant keep going on this way.

If it ends, it will be tough, but it will be tougher in the long run to keep going if it doesn't work, and even more so the longer it gets dragged out, if it ends. I'm really sorry to hear about your relationship issues though. I hope it works to talk to his parents, and that they can help in any way.

You know things are bad when you feel left out among your own group of friends, and someone else you know who doesn't have anything to do with said group fits in better than you do...

Senna-Umbreon wrote:You know things are bad when you feel left out among your own group of friends, and someone else you know who doesn't have anything to do with said group fits in better than you do...

Now you know how I feel with a lot of my friends. Thankfully, I have one who no matter what, she'll always be my friend.

We took the kittens to an adoption event. Or to be specific, we took three of the four kittens to an adoption event. One of them decided he wanted to spaz out and attack my hand. Now my hand hurts.

Makoes wrote:Talking doesn't work...it might seem to for a bit, but it never lasts. And he doesn't take responsibility for anything he does. Knife up in the sink, well its my fault for not doing the dishes, if I did the dishes, the knife wouldn't be there to be sticking up (yes, actually conversation we had at one time).

I did talk with one of my friends online, he let me ramble for a bit, and offered advice. I think after the weekend (aka my 2 shifts at work) I will be talking to his parents about whats going on, and asking them for help. he's just gotten so out of hand with the conspiracies, and everything. Something needs to be done because this isn't a healthy relation ship now, nor it is it a good environment for Kayla.
I love the caring Phil, the one that actually use to care about me...and I want to find him again. I am scared, I've been with him for 5yrs and I don't want to break up...but things cant keep going on this way.

Have you considered therapy or couple's counseling? Having a mediator there while you talk and who can guide conversation as well as provide advice on courses of action what can be done.