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I hate how shitty stepdad makes me feel.. i want to do things to make me happy and get my mind off shit and try to improve my mood but he tries to shoot them all down in flames with a friggin machine gun for gods sake. And it looks like im going to be stuck here till spring because i cant find a roommate to move in with, im still infact waiting for almost a WEEK now to hear back from about 8-10 people i sent inquiries to about their ad's.

Ive used up all my resources, all of the ones i know of and ones i was able to research about. Winter is a very bad time, very, very bad so i cant leave till it gets better cause stepdad will end up with nowhere to live since his job experience is spring/summer only. Least with income assistance paying my food and rent we can stay afloat but i need to live with him for that.

I also gotta go to a mental health worker as necessary for a full year in order to keep my income assistance money consistently flowing into my account but if i cant get away from stepdad, its going to be all for naught. Counselling is useless if i cant improve and living with stepdad is a huge issue and blockading my ability to improve. I just want this all to be done and over with. I stopped acting out on impulse with my dark thoughts after i came back home one night with two policemen in my house questioning my dad about where i could of gone to and why i disappeared from home.

I know better now, i know im on the verge of becoming an independent individual but ive been trying for the past decade to run away from the people who hurt me so i can live a better life but something always keeps grabbing me by the ankles and dragging me back. I just want to do things that will make me happy, that will make this wretched hole im in feel a little less shitty and take my mind off things, to learn things that i can perfect with my own signature flair and share with others.

Im on the verge of crying right now i hate it so much here..

I hate it how you should be excited for something coming up really soon, but then remember something really sucky that comes after it. v.v

I hate that the girl I'm crazy about is in another city 2 and a half hours away, dating some douchebag who doesn't care about her, and all I can do is sit around and watch it happen because I don't have the means nor method to do anything else.

I hate that I'm losing my starting spot in football, even though I'm trying as hard as I can in practice.

I hate that me and my dad can't ever see eye-to-eye, and every conflict between us ends with shouting and slamming.

Most importantly, I hate that 2 of my closest friends moved away for college, and I'm stuck here trying to finish my senior year without them.

But, I appreciate what I have, and have been given in life, so I'll do what I can with what I have, and if something's meant to be, it'll be.

Ahsufihaguihsrugi awhgursai ghuirsa gsaihgru ishg can people be creative
EVER
JUST BE ORIGINAL FOR ONCE
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I never meet any guys that are interested in me. ever. I decide to move to Norway. 3 weeks before i move country, I meet a guy who I think is amazing, and who actually really likes me. WHY IS FATE SO CRUEL.

He's writing me letters saying he wants to do long distance, and I don't know whether I can manage a long distance relationship. WHAT DO I DOOOOOOOO?!?!?

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LupisDarkmoon wrote:Ahsufihaguihsrugi awhgursai ghuirsa gsaihgru ishg can people be creative
EVER
JUST BE ORIGINAL FOR ONCE
ARHGSUHGiuag

Too bad most of the time so called "original" things have been done in the past. :/


Thinking about it it's not what you do it's how you do it.

Aeric wrote:ASDFGFDSASDFGHGFDSASDFGHJHGFDSADFGHJHGFDSASDFGHJHGFDSASDF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never meet any guys that are interested in me. ever. I decide to move to Norway. 3 weeks before i move country, I meet a guy who I think is amazing, and who actually really likes me. WHY IS FATE SO CRUEL.

He's writing me letters saying he wants to do long distance, and I don't know whether I can manage a long distance relationship. WHAT DO I DOOOOOOOO?!?!?

UUUUUUNNNGHGHGHGHGHGFGHFGHJHGFDGHJHGFGHJHGFGHJHGHJHGFGHJHGFGH.

Aw, isn't that typical.. You could always stay in norway, or bring him with you.

Classes start tomorrow for me and I'm nervous! D:


I don't even know why, really... all I'm taking are art classes because my counselor said I should take something I enjoy so I don't hate the world.... but guh. I'm just nervous.

I think... Drawing I is tomorrow and on Wed is Mosaics.
X_x

Oh god bf's mom brought home gecko's. Neither of them know shit squat about taking care of reptiles, mom doesnt even care about the animals they already own and makes bf do all the work even tho she brings them home unannounced. Like, literally, without telling anyone type of unannounced. I had to fully explain tempature, humidity, equipment, caging, lighting to bf so he doesnt fuck up the poor animals lives. Seriously, he is so immature when it comes to caring for animals. He cant even keep his two cat's water clean and their food full and their litter box routinely clean, or brush his knot-ridden one (she was shaved this summer but i was cutting out a dozen knots a week from her fur) or clean her backside because its just filthy with waste (she's too obese and cant clean her backside so it collects very quickly).

Its not bf's fault, its his mom, but he doesnt know how to care for animals properly. he doesnt know how to upkeep their needs. It took me our entire relationship of 3 years to get him to finally have the poor gal shaved so she doesnt have to suffer with those painful knots. FML. Just, FML. I feel so bad for those animals but they arent in crisis so SPCA cant get involved, not even to send them a warning. I just pray to god on the behalf of the gecko's that bf listens to a freaking T this time about caring for these things. And i mean to a bloody T. Reptiles are so finicky ive discovered from working with them on a daily routine, they need very specific conditions that are not available up here. Least, the ones that are south of the equator are.

Btw these are crested gecko's. Ive dealt with them a lot before and i was taught to, along with a few other gecko species such as viper and leapord, to maintain their environments specifically. Whether leeway can be had for them or not, i do not know. Im following what i was taught and also care sheets from off the web.

I finally had a GOOD group with my level-stop 80 huntress and what happens? WoW crashes, totally, not even the website is availiable atm >.<

Water, WHY U NO WORK? I need a shower! Yet your hardly sputtering out anything. Its not just that, everything that uses water is running dry in the house. I dont know why and frankly because of one epidemic with tainted water im afraid to drink tap water if the whole house is having water trouble. I dont have a filter of any kind to ensure there's no impurities. Least i refilled the cat and rat's water dishes yesterday. I can afford to wait till tomorrow before giving them a new round of fresh water.

I just did like two hours of math. On about three hours of sleep. I think my brain is trying to escape.

/sigh, ive finally drained the toxic puddle that was my relationship. Ive given him the chance to redeem himself, but it's not going to be easy, he's going to have to work his freaking ass off if he considers for even the slightest moment the idea of our 3 years together actually meant anything and is worth salvaging. I love him. Im just not in love with him. But, ive given him the offer. I am not going to spend my life waiting on him though, i am going to do the things i want to do and focus on other aspects of life. If he feels im worth the effort it requires to get me back, all the power to him. Irregardless, i can only hope that it will change him for the better. Unfortunately with the loss of him as a partner, i no longer have any shred of a social life aside from going to Toastmasters once a week. Least he's willing to remain friends so we can still keep in touch.

Xakaal wrote:/sigh, ive finally drained the toxic puddle that was my relationship. Ive given him the chance to redeem himself, but it's not going to be easy, he's going to have to work his freaking ass off if he considers for even the slightest moment the idea of our 3 years together actually meant anything and is worth salvaging. I love him. Im just not in love with him. But, ive given him the offer. I am not going to spend my life waiting on him though, i am going to do the things i want to do and focus on other aspects of life. If he feels im worth the effort it requires to get me back, all the power to him. Irregardless, i can only hope that it will change him for the better. Unfortunately with the loss of him as a partner, i no longer have any shred of a social life aside from going to Toastmasters once a week. Least he's willing to remain friends so we can still keep in touch.

That moment when you see the people you left doing all sorts of things without you. And you left them for good reasons and you hated the way things were going and it made you miserable but deep down you still miss it and you miss when everything worked and you wish things hadn't happened and blurrrgh now I'm sort of sad and I need to stop caring about what people are doing in their little corner of the internet because I have my own corners.

I just saw the biggest tick I've ever seen. It was at least the size of my pinky finger nail. And grey. I freaked out.

Minnie just brought in a giant wild white..........piece of bread....

> Hey, look, the last Nerubian Archaeology rare!
> So now of course I'll never get Nerubian digsites again
> In fact, I'm going to just get the same 4 Vrykul sites over and over, even though there is nothing left from Vrykul for me at all, so they really should never be showing up anymore.
> When I finally get a Nerubian site...
> 5 fragments, every dig.

Welp.

I just finished reading a really great Avatar: The Last Airbender fanfic, Tales of Republic City, and I'm crying so much, img. Just. I can't. I can't even. I'm a sobbing mess.

Why do things have to make me a sobbing mess?

Dear co-workers,
If you want to say something "witty" about me, how about waiting til you see me clocking out and leaving the building. Or else I'll have this odd need to make sure all the residents have had milk of mag so they won't be constipated on your shift.

Thank you,

Your loving co-worker on the not so easy 3rd shift with only 2 CNAs so I have to help answer lights, assist residents to the bathrooms, get snacks, and make sure their not getting out of bed and falling to the floor unlike you on 1st shift who has 6 CNAs plus other staff to help you out.