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I hate spiders...its spider season...I am teaching my cats to kill/eat the spiders...they are good learners. I hate spiders...

not entiiiiiiiirely a rant... but i finally got to see the new les mis, and i bawled like a baby at the end. like full un, uncontrollable, disgusting sobs, snot running down my face.

now i have a headache.

Really frustrated and annoyed and I don't know why. I just want to draw something pretty. :-/ Why can't I draw something pretty?

And my uncle died. We saw it coming, and it was for the best at this point, but it was still a shock to hear.

LupisDarkmoon wrote:And my uncle died. We saw it coming, and it was for the best at this point, but it was still a shock to hear.

Oh Lupis I'm so sorry. I remember you talking about him before. I can't remember if you were close or not but either way to lose someone in your immediate family is always rough. I can't remember if he had a severe sickness or not but from your post it sounds that he did and I suppose it's a small comfort he's not in pain anymore.(If he was). Just try to keep your chin up and lean on your family for support. That's what they're there for. <3

LupisDarkmoon wrote:And my uncle died. We saw it coming, and it was for the best at this point, but it was still a shock to hear.

*hugs* that was the dude with the painpump right? That sucks mate. Well we are all here for ya if you need us.

Omgpersonyoukilledoursmut.

Seriously, it was great till you did that (like, what am I supposed to post that isn't dissapoint?) and now I just want to skip right back to the forum and just time skip the other characters that are also having their own alone time

/sulk

I still have one other smut to get to the end of, two that just started, and one that will probably start in a couple posts and now I cant bring myself to post in any

LupisDarkmoon wrote:And my uncle died. We saw it coming, and it was for the best at this point, but it was still a shock to hear.

I'm so sorry hun.....He fought hard.

My rant...sorta....My guildie's ex gf's little girl died today from pneumonia....man...neither of us would wish that on our worst enemy.......it makes me cry at the thought....

Junrei wrote:

LupisDarkmoon wrote:And my uncle died. We saw it coming, and it was for the best at this point, but it was still a shock to hear.

I'm so sorry hun.....He fought hard.

My rant...sorta....My guildie's ex gf's little girl died today from pneumonia....man...neither of us would wish that on our worst enemy.......it makes me cry at the thought....

Wow just horrible x2 guys, all the best I'm sure from everyone here

Also Its just a sad time in general for the world..that poor man hacked on the streets of london, all for wearing a t-shirt...just I dont want to live here anymore if thats the mentality of ppl now..and the people in the video that just walked past the man ranting with bloodied hands?? Omg...thank goodness those two women that tried to help, restored a lil faith in humanity atleast...

Castile wrote:
Also Its just a sad time in general for the world..that poor man hacked on the streets of london, all for wearing a t-shirt...just I dont want to live here anymore if thats the mentality of ppl now..and the people in the video that just walked past the man ranting with bloodied hands?? Omg...thank goodness those two women that tried to help, restored a lil faith in humanity atleast...

Well he was killed for being a solider, it was all Islamists stuff and honestly I would not go near someone who just hacked a man to death.

Not an angry rant, just a minor grumble.

I spilled a drink a few weeks ago at my desk and it got on my mouse. It's been mostly fine, was a bit sticky at first but got better after use. I hadn't been playing WoW very often though, so today when I thought I'd sit down and do some more of the new content I realized how bad my mouse was. The buttons are sticking too much to play the game very well, so I'll have to go buy a new one before I really get back into things.

Today doesn't have any right to have been bad. It just has been. I've broken down and started crying four times in the last hour, and I don't know why.

I just feel so useless. Nothing I ever do makes money. I barely get commissions, and I don't even feel like I deserve those, since my art is so incredibly mediocre. I'm never going to manage to make a decent amount of money with it.

I'm terrified the OCT I fun is going to fail because it won't have enough competitors.

I can't even look at the writing I've done over the last semester to see about editing it because I'm too afraid to look at it.

I can't pull out journals to try and prep for writing more because my writing is awful anyway.

I hate drawing, because my art is awful and looks awful.

I'm just so useless.

First night home... I can finally play Guild Wars 2, after a whole year of waiting... I design my character (which took like... an hour) and play for a while.
It's 4 AM so I decide maybe I should get some sleep now.
... Mum decides to let all the cats in at 6.
They jump all over me.
FUCK'S SAKE I JUST CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS.
Worse part is my friend is staying with me and he fell straight to sleep at midnight and he's actually allowed to keep his door shut so the cats can't get in and he's still asleep and I'M JEALOUS.

Bah! humbug!.

Baah. Missed an unborn valkyr by seconds. Stupid paladins and their stupid go fasterness. Grumble grumble stupid minfernal 2.0. RABBLE RABBLE.

My rant for now, given today is normally a day some of us set aside to remember those who have given their lives. I lost my father before I was ever born, he was in Vietnam and when he came home he apparently was not the man that went. I often go through his old year books and letters to his mom and brothers. He was a valedictorian for his school with an incredible IQ and had a full scholarship to college. He had a talent for languages and spoke several. He was drafted, he went he served and I guess a major part of him died there. I'm not sure if I have a right to mourn for something I never had in the first place.

I keep having massive mood whiplash over these last few weeks. I know it's probably just my birth control, since I've never been on it before, and my body will balance everything out over the next month or so.

But I hate this. I go from screaming to sobbing, and not even over the same thing. I keep slipping into depressive moods that are much harder than usual to pull myself out of. Sometimes I can muster up enough happy to smile at things, but mostly I'm sad and angry and upset over being sad an angry. I've been taking things I know aren't about me (people having to go to bed, people being offline, etc) and thinking I've driven people off. And then they come back the next day and everything's fine, but I keep thinking they're going to abandon me.

I'm always tired, my arms are always sore, and I can't bring myself not to sit in my room all day. But I don't even do anything in there. There's nothing to do, not really, but I still hate that I'm not doing anything. I ought to be writing, or drawing, or doing a thousand other things. Instead I curl up under my covers and hide from the world.

I just want this to stop.

Got a Phone call from my sister this evening, our Grandma was rushed to the hospital. She's been having some health issues (and was on the mend), but nothing that seemed serious, but...she had some sort of bowl obstruction, and is now in surgery. We're not even sure if she will survive the operation. My Uncles and Dad are at the hospital, while my sister and I are stuck 1.5 hrs away. All we can do is wait for our Dad to send us updates.

**Edit: She survived the operation and is currently in ICU asking for her teeth.

Friend who's staying with me for two weeks just left for a few hours.
I forgot how much I hate being alone.

I feel like I'm losing my girlfriend... Slowly, but surely.

Everything I do is wrong and I just
don't know how much more of this I can take before she either leaves me or I have a mental breakdown