I mis-counted.
Today is day 30, not yesterday when I made the above post. And the last time my period was late was not 33 days, but 30. So this one is as late as my last late one. Did you get all that?
Of some curiosity is that at around 4:00 a.m. today, I was awoken by horrible nausea. I am thinking it was the Chinese food I ate, but it wasn't accompanied by cramps, diarrhea, gas, or any of those usual food poisoning symptoms. It was just plain ol' nausea. Pretty bad nausea, too. I haven't felt that bad since I caught my husband's stomach flu after our wedding (yeah, he was sick at our wedding, good times). I couldn't sleep. I took some Nauzene chewable tablets (those things are awesome, I swear), sat in the bathroom for a few minutes until it started to calm down, and crawled back in bed.
I mean, I know our chances are so low (between my infertility and his infertility) that I'm trying not to get my hopes up. But late period, strange early-morning nausea.....it's hard
not to hope. No boob or nipple swelling or darkening, though. They are a little sore on and off, but not constant and not to the point that they feel like they're going to explode or anything. Maybe it's too early for that. I haven't had a heightened sense of smell or aversions to anything, either.
I am going to keep telling myself that my period is going to start this week (either overnight tonight or tomorrow), and all this crap is just funky PMS and I'm not pregnant and possibly never will be. But I can't help but feel a tiny glimmer of hope.
I guess the only thing I can do is see if I get nauseous like that again, and if my period still hasn't started by the weekend, I'll have a pregnancy test done on Monday. And not the home test kits, either, the blood one.
What sucks is that I haven't been able to have my progesterone levels checked since November. I had two periods in December, the first on cycle day 18 and the second on cycle day 23, and I'm supposed to get my levels checked on cycle day 24. Since they were both early, they just had to put me back on the Clomid and tell me to come back next time. Well, this month I was able to make it to the lab, but then I had forgotten I switched to my husband's insurance and didn't have his card yet, so they said I couldn't test. Therefore, I have no idea if this 150 mg dose is working or not.
Some other things have happened this month that seemed a tiny bit weird, but not like OMG PREGNANCY weird. First, I was having some lower abdominal pain at the tail end of what I assume is my ovulation period (now I have no idea since my periods have been so early). On this medicine, I had ovarian pain but it was before and at the beginning of ovulation, not after. I started feeling PMS-like symptoms around day 16 like increased hunger and fatigue (which I figured was a combination of PMS and me being fat and lazy). Last week, all week (and I think the end of the week before), I was craving pickles and other vinegary foods like you wouldn't believe. For the past week and a half or so, I've also been having a lot of discharge (so much at some points that I thought it was my period starting). Then this week my period still hasn't come and then I got nauseous this morning. Also, I've been having cramping that feels like period cramping, but not as intense or long as normal.
/sigh. I know this all sounds pretty good, but I just know my luck isn't that good. I know it's going to take years for it to happen, if ever. So why can't I stop thinking about it?
Hopefully my period will start tonight or tomorrow and I can tell my husband and all my friends that yet again, it was a false alarm and we can all go back to our regularly scheduled lives.
And here I had just decided that I wanted to back to school to do echocardiology (ultrasounds of the cardiovascular system), and that I was going to go ahead and put off having a baby.

That would just be a wonderful irony if I ended up getting pregnant now.
Sorry this post is so long, by the way. As you can tell, I have a lot on my mind.

I honestly don't care if I'm not pregnant, I had already accepted that it could take a long time. I just want to know one way or the other.
