Rant Thread

[Iowawolf]

Logged on today after mailing the one year gift to my girlfriend to check my facebook then to the game what is so weird is on my facebook she is no longer on my friends list and everything she has liked doesn't show she liked it and what also is odd is it no longer says she is in a relationship with me when it used too. This leads me to believe some fuckhead has hacked her account and is trying to ruin us as a couple because they see how strong we are as a couple and want her to be as unhappy as them. Also while looking through old messages there was one from august 17th saying she was cheating on me which I highly doubt because she isn't that type of girl and she would tell me if things weren't going right. I am trying to bring her to Arizona for Christmas and that is all she has been talking about lately so to me that is another sign we as a couple are fine. I was with her night before last and she seemed just fine even saying how she loves being my girlfriend after the shit she had to go through with her ex. Why would some mother fucker want to do this shit and try and ruin what her and I have built when I know this isn't her I did call her when I saw this and left a message but have to work today so this going to be bugging me all night now at work. I will try and stay positive because I know she loves me and wants to be with me from what we have been talking about. If I was to ever find the fucker who did this to her account I would take a fucking knife to what balls he had and cut them off without any pain medicine make his ass suffer for what he is doing to my girlfriend.

[cowmuflage]

Wow still can't believe people still think Ring around the rosie is about the black death! It's not! It was only after 1951 that people started saying it was. No one before then ever mentioned it was about that.

just another urban legend.

[Iowawolf]

Just got off work and what is so awesome is during she calls me and leaves two voice mails to say what I knew her facebook has again been hacked which as her boyfriend is fucking pissing me off because some fucker is messing with my girlfriend and I don't like when someone messes with her. I am thankful as always we were able to talk this through and it shows we are a strong couple and fucking no one or nothing will tear us apart. To the son of a bitch out there who thinks it is funny fucking with me and my girlfriend I say bring it you bastard you haven't seen anyone as pissed off as a boyfriend like me and I fucking swear I will defend the honor of the woman I love and yes my girlfriend and I are doing great as always no problems otherwise.

[Ana]

Our computer is broken so we have to borrow money aaand that is never fun cause we are not rich ppl and an extra debt is NOT going to be fun .. we are down to 8,82 us dolors or 6,71 euro a day including medicine, transport clothing and such... man i feel poor sometimes

aaand just went to the doctor and come out with bad news.. i gained another 18 kilos so now im at 180 kilos... My grandmoter were around 200 kilos when she died... so it feels like i dont have alot of life left

SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUXY week and day

[Dewclaw]

Tarn. Did the Dr. suggest anything you could do?

[Ana]

nope.. nothing to do.. no cure for elepahntiatis and producing to much corticosteroids

[Lorelei]

Our computer is broken so we have to borrow money aaand that is never fun cause we are not rich ppl and an extra debt is NOT going to be fun .. we are down to 8,82 us dolors or 6,71 euro a day including medicine, transport clothing and such... man i feel poor sometimes

aaand just went to the doctor and come out with bad news.. i gained another 18 kilos so now im at 180 kilos... My grandmoter were around 200 kilos when she died... so it feels like i dont have alot of life left

SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUXY week and day

I love you hun.. today sucked for you and Michael

You know you are rich where it matters.. I cant think of anyone who would want to share their 2 bedroom flat with 2 extra adult and 1 teenager with special needs. We might not be rich but we got the love.
I know its hard on you and Michael .. i really wish i could invent a pill or a cure for the both of you

[Krysteena]

Keep ya chin up Tårn! We're all rooting for you!

Headache, please go away. IV enough idea why you're here but...can random parts of my body stop aching for no reason please?! First it was my teeth. (I have braces, so that's understandable). Why my head? Unless I got hit in the head by a basketball and I didn't actually know it's happened before.

[Ana]

Keep ya chin up Tårn! We're all rooting for you!
.

thanks..

really hard to get my mude back up. Im sad and feel really fat, ugly and useless. I HATE weiging 180 kilos DESPITE eating heatlhy and exerciszing..

its not fair

[Snowy]

Right, I don't know what depression feels like, I don't know how it works or how to understand it, and I won't self diagnose, I hate doing that, but whenever I'm left alone and to my own thoughts with nothing to distract me... I feel like crying and curling into a ball and sleeping forever. And unfortunately that happens fairly often these days as everyone in the house plays RPGs and not me so I get a lot of time to myself and my thoughts.

I hate uni. I can't wait for this last fucking year to be over. My finances won't be so stable afterwards though. I don't have a job. I've never had a job. I'm 22 and never had a job, I feel pathetic. But I hate uni. I've made barely any new friends through it and it feels like everyone else knows each other and it's pretty important since we're now organising our own teams and... I'm going to get left out, I have no motivation to even try. I've been so out of it all summer, not wanting to think about uni, not wanting to think about doing *anything* except my stupid expensive hobbies which seriously distract me from the rest of my life. My mother has depression and I can't handle it well, I can barely see her anymore without crying, but I need to contain it else she'll cry too and... my cat's lost all her teeth and it really upsets me... I just can't anymore. I can't exert myself. I have zero motivation and willpower. I just want to curl into a ball, sleep forever.

I know I don't have depression but I'm feeling *depressed* and I don't know what else to call it. When I'm around people or doing something I enjoy, I'm fine and quite happy. But uni starts again at the end of the month, the only reason I'm staying is so I can get the funding I need for me and my boyfriend. Uni is now constantly in the back of my mind and I hate it, so much.

[Kirrandria]

That's like nearly the exact thing I came here to rant about. Depression :I Yeah I've never been actually diagnosed by a professional but what the hell else is it. I want to go see someone about it. But every time I bring it up to my mother she's all "Well we don't have the money and all he's going to do is prescribe you a pill if he does think anything is wrong, and those don't work. " I swear it's like she thinks there's not even anything wrong with me. Every time I'm having one of my really bad days (because these depression feeling have been going on for YEARS), she always has to ask what's wrong, and every single time I don't have an answer. I don't know what's wrong, I just feel like a god damn wreck. Well, something had to happen to upset me this bad! No, mother, nothing happened. Or it was some tiny thing that I agonized over in my head until I ended up in this mess. And then she gets upset with me because I can't give her an answer like well I'd like to know what upset me too, let me know if you figure it out.

Seriously I just spent an hour sobbing in various rooms in the house because of nothing. I can't even work out what made me feel like this. I've been out of the house all day, is that it? None of my friends are online, is that it? I don't know because I encounter these situations plenty often and they don't always set me off like this, but tonight I just feel awful and it's so similar to so many other nights I feel like this I haven't even been awake twelve hours yet today and I already feel like I just want to go to bed and something is wrong with me.

[Snowy]

It feels like I'm going through some kind of midlife crisis at the age of 22 haha.

Yes Kirra that's exactly what I mean. I'm tired all the time, especially the last few days. Went for a looooooooong walk about a week ago, was exhausted when I came back and haven't been able to sleep properly since, so I've constantly been tired, which means I've constantly been agitated, which means people just assume it's shark week for me. I won't tell my mum about it though, she's struggling enough with her own problems for me to pressure mine on to her as well, especially when my issues are nothing compared to hers. I might just get counselling throughout the uni year or some kind of advisor or whatever just so I'm not constantly wanting to cry during all my classes. It nearly got to that point last year, I did so much work at home because I didn't want to get upset at uni and therefore I met basically no one. Everyone just assumed I was rather antisocial I guess. The only friends I really have are the friends I made back in college, some of which I live with now and some of which are on my current course so I *do* have friends, I just don't know *everyone* like everyone else seems to.

I don't know what to say to anyone anymore about these kinds of things other than, "Yeah, I know how you feel." so... yeah. :/

I don't want to tell friends out of fear that they'll think I'm just being dramatic. I don't want to tell my boyfriend cause I don't want to worry him. Urg.

[Kirrandria]

It feels like I'm going through some kind of midlife crisis at the age of 22 haha.

YEP. Midlife crisis at 22 xD Beh, I'm starting at Uni myself but I can't say that's the cause of any of my anxieties yet, but I'm sure these feelings'll just get more frequent and worse as I continue. Maybe, I dunno.

But ugh, I'm tired of feeling awful all the time. Some days are better than others, and like you said that if I'm doing something with friends I tend to not feel bad at all (although if I start to feel real bad and THEN my friends come along, I never really enjoy anything we do :/ which sucks. ) But yeah, I usually feel inexplicably tired and sad at some point during my day, and usually have trouble focusing at all during this time. Some days it lasts all day, and I get awful headaches because of it and bleh. It just sucks, a lot.

[Azunara]

I can't find my authenticator and as a result I have become a seething mass of anger and hatred.

Maybe I'll try looking again tomorrow.

[Castile]

More of a muse than a rant...but is it so terrible i don't want to go out every weekend? My fiance goes on at me to go out more when hes away and see my friends but I've had these friends since high school - we dont need to see each other every weekend to be friends (if that makes sense). I'm 32 now, clubbing and crowds really isn't my thing anymore and I don't go out to get drunk anymore (infact i dont drink too much at all - usually only 1 or 2 then its LLB for the rest of the night lol.) Is staying home and watching tv or playing wow on a saturday such a bad thing? I know he means well and I usually visit my mum like a good only child when hes away anyway but yeah. Maybe I'm just boring :S

[Niabi]

The doctor called me with the results of my biopsy today ...

I have cancer.

[Ana]

The doctor called me with the results of my biopsy today ...

I have cancer.

Not sure what else to say other than a hug

[Krysteena]

Oh Niabi "you'll be alright" "everything will sort itself out" are things I'd say but...they won't grant you any comfort. I reckon you've heard it said before, and I'm so sorry for what's going on.
Keep ya chin up girlie. We got your back

[Lupis]

The doctor called me with the results of my biopsy today ...

I have cancer.

I... There's nothing I can say. I'm so sorry. I only hope it was caught early enough that you can start treatment right away.

[cowmuflage]

Uh con stress has started to sink in. It's only a month away ;-;