Re: Rant Thread
Posted: Sat Feb 18, 2017 1:45 pm
This may or may not be my first time posting in this thread. I honestly am not sure. I always find it difficult to put my personal business out there with strangers. I know some of you I've known a very long time in eFriendship respects so this isn't easy for me but I reckon maybe if I spill some stuff out on here it may help.
Slight backstory. I have always had female issues. About 10+ years ago I went in for my yearly well woman and left the appointment content because hey ......................... they're ALWAYS normal. Four days later I get a call from my GYN doctor. She wanted me to come in. I pushed her to give me the results over the phone. Lets just saying it was abnormal but she wanted to set up a biopsy right away. Turns out I had pre-cancerous lesions. About 10. They were removed and thus began the every 6 months checks. Couple more biopsies. More checks. Finally started coming up clear.
Fast forward to about 2014-2015 another abnormal pap. Not to mention several nasty periods etc. More biopsies and a LEEP procedure. Things were good for a whole four to five months. Fast forward one more time to July 2016. I have gastrointestinal issues too (I'm a lemon
) and had to have some procedures followed by a CT enterography (which highlights EVERYTHING) in ones tummy. Including the girly bits. Things were seen on both my ovaries. GI doc sends to GYN doc and immediately calls for a pelvic ultrasound. Results come back. Not the best news but doc wants a follow up US in three months.
Fast forward to Jan 2017. Yes I was late in getting it done. This time though. Results were not good. Like bad. Cysts on left ovary not reduced in size still threatening collapse but they weren't growing either. The right side. There was a solid mass. Not a cyst. An actual mass. Knowing my history and what a huge cancer risk I am doctor immediately calls for surgery to remove the offending mass. Jump to 02/10/17. Surgery date. He reassures me (GYN) this is routine, two incisions remove the mass possibly the whole ovary, done. But if he encounters "issues" he may have to do a third incision and remove more tissue. Out I go and wake up several hours later in the most pain and sickness I've ever had in my life. Get home. The next morning I happen to notice I am beat to shit looking from the belly button down and I have three incisions. Tuesday rolls around and I call his office asking WTF happened. Not only am I swollen still to the point I cannot move but I cannot sit normally, can't sleep yadda yadda yadda and what happened during the procedure since I clearly wasn't awake for the post op instructions. Come to find out he'd done what's called a unilateral salpingo-oophorectomy. In normal terms that means the whole ovary, fallopian tube and a wee bit of the uterus are completely gone. Basically a partial hysterectomy.
Thinking I'd be going back to work Tuesday I called yesterday to see if pathology was back. Nope.
Anxiety level +20. The nurse, who I love, says "You can't go back on Tuesday! Didn't he tell you??? You can't return to work till March." Excuse me??? March? Anxiety level +20. She states the paperwork has already been sent into HR and to make sure I sign up for state disability and call her back with the reference number. Dumbfound I hang up and call HR. Sure enough. She gives me the information. I try to call but of course like every other state of CA branch couldn't get through. Some crying later and it hits me.
What am I going to tell my guy???? Anxiety level +30.
We both earn pretty good money but he definitely makes more than me. He's already not happy pathology isn't back and he saw how tore up I was /am from the surgery. Already there is a lot of stress there.
I am not one to EVER hide things from anyone. I don't like it. It BOTHERS me. But I am finding it extremely difficult to just go hey, guess what, I'm not working for the next month and there'll be even less money coming in.
I made my pro's and con's list. There are several in each category. But I still have no clue how to broach the subject. If this end up being cancer I find that strangely easier to tell him than this. A month is a long time.
Anyway. I'm sorry this is so long a post guys. Just hoping typing it out will give some inspiration, ideas and anxiety level reduction.
Regardless of my personal outcome. Ladies. Gentleman. Everyone. Get your yearly physicals. If something feels off talk to your doctor(s). I've never been the "it'll never happen to me" person. But I work in the medical field, have my entire adult life and I've seen the sneak attacks diseases can do and what some of these can destroy. Take care of yourselves.
Ok. PSA message over.
Slight backstory. I have always had female issues. About 10+ years ago I went in for my yearly well woman and left the appointment content because hey ......................... they're ALWAYS normal. Four days later I get a call from my GYN doctor. She wanted me to come in. I pushed her to give me the results over the phone. Lets just saying it was abnormal but she wanted to set up a biopsy right away. Turns out I had pre-cancerous lesions. About 10. They were removed and thus began the every 6 months checks. Couple more biopsies. More checks. Finally started coming up clear.
Fast forward to about 2014-2015 another abnormal pap. Not to mention several nasty periods etc. More biopsies and a LEEP procedure. Things were good for a whole four to five months. Fast forward one more time to July 2016. I have gastrointestinal issues too (I'm a lemon

Fast forward to Jan 2017. Yes I was late in getting it done. This time though. Results were not good. Like bad. Cysts on left ovary not reduced in size still threatening collapse but they weren't growing either. The right side. There was a solid mass. Not a cyst. An actual mass. Knowing my history and what a huge cancer risk I am doctor immediately calls for surgery to remove the offending mass. Jump to 02/10/17. Surgery date. He reassures me (GYN) this is routine, two incisions remove the mass possibly the whole ovary, done. But if he encounters "issues" he may have to do a third incision and remove more tissue. Out I go and wake up several hours later in the most pain and sickness I've ever had in my life. Get home. The next morning I happen to notice I am beat to shit looking from the belly button down and I have three incisions. Tuesday rolls around and I call his office asking WTF happened. Not only am I swollen still to the point I cannot move but I cannot sit normally, can't sleep yadda yadda yadda and what happened during the procedure since I clearly wasn't awake for the post op instructions. Come to find out he'd done what's called a unilateral salpingo-oophorectomy. In normal terms that means the whole ovary, fallopian tube and a wee bit of the uterus are completely gone. Basically a partial hysterectomy.
Thinking I'd be going back to work Tuesday I called yesterday to see if pathology was back. Nope.

What am I going to tell my guy???? Anxiety level +30.
We both earn pretty good money but he definitely makes more than me. He's already not happy pathology isn't back and he saw how tore up I was /am from the surgery. Already there is a lot of stress there.
I am not one to EVER hide things from anyone. I don't like it. It BOTHERS me. But I am finding it extremely difficult to just go hey, guess what, I'm not working for the next month and there'll be even less money coming in.
I made my pro's and con's list. There are several in each category. But I still have no clue how to broach the subject. If this end up being cancer I find that strangely easier to tell him than this. A month is a long time.
Anyway. I'm sorry this is so long a post guys. Just hoping typing it out will give some inspiration, ideas and anxiety level reduction.
Regardless of my personal outcome. Ladies. Gentleman. Everyone. Get your yearly physicals. If something feels off talk to your doctor(s). I've never been the "it'll never happen to me" person. But I work in the medical field, have my entire adult life and I've seen the sneak attacks diseases can do and what some of these can destroy. Take care of yourselves.
Ok. PSA message over.
