Just Plain Happy
Posted: Fri Sep 23, 2011 11:04 pm
Hi there, I just am kind of overwhelmed with joy right now and need an outlet before this smile gets stuck on my face for good. I know what you're thinking "OMG WALL OF TEXT THIS IS SO LONG" But I did put a lot of feeling into this.
So i'm a junior in high school, yeah, a youngin', but age doesn't define someone's personality, but we won't get into that. I was petrified to move to a new town, even if it was only about 30 minutes away from my old house. My stepdad and mother recently got married, but this was after we moved. I've always been afraid to depend on anybody but myself, I would feel guilty even when my mom would come home with groceries. I've been really independent all my life, it's just part of who I am. I'm very social as well, but changes like moving just scare me half to death. It's always been just my mother, my younger brother, and I. I was also pretty skeptical about moving out of my old town, even thought it was overrun with low income housing and kids dealing drugs by freshmen year. I stuck out like a sore thumb. I tried my hardest to be social and keep the tension low, but there always seemed to be drama and issues because it was such a harsh town. Moving here, I knew the school would be better, i'm a dedicated AP Biology student and was excited that I'd be learning in a faster pace. It was just finding a group of friends I was worried about.
On the first day, I was taken under too many wings. Everyone looked the same, I was scared about where I was going to sit at lunch, but I made due. By the time I got home I was just really shaken, I didn't know where I was going, I couldn't remember a single name. The days passed though, and I fit in a lot more. People got clearer, I knew my way around and the swing of things. Though in one class, I still seemed to sit alone, which was very weird for me since I'm so social. But, sure enough, one boy introduced himself to me. He seemed really nice and honestly...someone I could see myself being a best friend to. He was part of a huge group of people, all interested in the same things I am. We wound up really clicking. We started hanging out after school, but tonight was seriously the greatest night ever.
In my old town, my parents were really overprotective because of all the dysfunctional households that were part of the low income families. I was a little scared myself. But here, I can just hang out whenever. My new group of friends and I all went roller blading at a local rink tonight, and I just took it as fun. But finally getting closer to everyone individually meant the world to me. By the end of tonight, I was exhausted, but they were all hugging me and telling me how lucky they are to have met me. I could not stop tearing up. I'm just so thankful they love who I am so much, and that I feel the same. Now, every Friday night will be the best ever. I'm fitting so well here. I am so very happy that I took the plunge and changed everything for the better. Thankful does not describe how i'm feeling, and i'm sorry this was such a wall of text, but I really cannot stop smiling. I've been wanting this for a very long time.
So i'm a junior in high school, yeah, a youngin', but age doesn't define someone's personality, but we won't get into that. I was petrified to move to a new town, even if it was only about 30 minutes away from my old house. My stepdad and mother recently got married, but this was after we moved. I've always been afraid to depend on anybody but myself, I would feel guilty even when my mom would come home with groceries. I've been really independent all my life, it's just part of who I am. I'm very social as well, but changes like moving just scare me half to death. It's always been just my mother, my younger brother, and I. I was also pretty skeptical about moving out of my old town, even thought it was overrun with low income housing and kids dealing drugs by freshmen year. I stuck out like a sore thumb. I tried my hardest to be social and keep the tension low, but there always seemed to be drama and issues because it was such a harsh town. Moving here, I knew the school would be better, i'm a dedicated AP Biology student and was excited that I'd be learning in a faster pace. It was just finding a group of friends I was worried about.
On the first day, I was taken under too many wings. Everyone looked the same, I was scared about where I was going to sit at lunch, but I made due. By the time I got home I was just really shaken, I didn't know where I was going, I couldn't remember a single name. The days passed though, and I fit in a lot more. People got clearer, I knew my way around and the swing of things. Though in one class, I still seemed to sit alone, which was very weird for me since I'm so social. But, sure enough, one boy introduced himself to me. He seemed really nice and honestly...someone I could see myself being a best friend to. He was part of a huge group of people, all interested in the same things I am. We wound up really clicking. We started hanging out after school, but tonight was seriously the greatest night ever.
In my old town, my parents were really overprotective because of all the dysfunctional households that were part of the low income families. I was a little scared myself. But here, I can just hang out whenever. My new group of friends and I all went roller blading at a local rink tonight, and I just took it as fun. But finally getting closer to everyone individually meant the world to me. By the end of tonight, I was exhausted, but they were all hugging me and telling me how lucky they are to have met me. I could not stop tearing up. I'm just so thankful they love who I am so much, and that I feel the same. Now, every Friday night will be the best ever. I'm fitting so well here. I am so very happy that I took the plunge and changed everything for the better. Thankful does not describe how i'm feeling, and i'm sorry this was such a wall of text, but I really cannot stop smiling. I've been wanting this for a very long time.