Female Reproductive Health [explicit]

[Silivren]

Im 21 and at least 4 of my good friends have kids and some have two.. It makes me go "Oh.." just seeing them with their kids it makes one want that kind of love you can only have from creating something beautiful with someone you love. <3

[Rhyela]

Yeah, I'm 27 now and my husband and I will have been married for seven years this June, a total of eight years together. It took a while, but we both feel ready to have children now (actually, he's been ready - I'm the one that wasn't sure until last year). That maternal drive or whatever is really kicking in now, though. When I was 21, I didn't think I'd ever want kids at all. XD Funny how things can change.

I wish you mountains of luck when it's time for you and your loved one to start trying.

[cowmuflage]

Yeah, I'm 27 now and my husband and I will have been married for seven years this June, a total of eight years together. It took a while, but we both feel ready to have children now (actually, he's been ready - I'm the one that wasn't sure until last year). That maternal drive or whatever is really kicking in now, though. When I was 21, I didn't think I'd ever want kids at all. XD Funny how things can change.

I wish you mountains of luck when it's time for you and your loved one to start trying.

I'm 21 and I don't want kids. Seeing as I just graduated I think getting a jobs more important that making human fruit XD

[cowmuflage]

Ah break ups are allways hard but being the one to do the breaking is the hardest part. I just can't stand his uber religous crap anymore it's quite downgradeing when he treats you less than a book >.> I mean okay I can get the whole "no sex before marrage" thing but all this crap that I can't please myself becouse it's sinfull? No I can't handle that. Allso all his crap about "watching porn is cheating" is just gah you do it then! >.< Another thing all his constant asking me to marry him is getting on my nerves. No means no damnit!


I hate to be doing this today seeing as I just graduated from animation school yesterday (well It was our last day the ceromony's not till march) but I just can't stand it anymore >:(

I tried to do the whole "no sex before marriage" thing, too, since that's how I was raised. Didn't quite work out that way, but my husband is still my first and will hopefully be my last.

Now the part about telling YOU what you can't do by yourself, that's another thing. Forcing your beliefs on someone else is not the way to win their heart. For example, I don't celebrate Christmas, but I don't demand that my husband not celebrate it, either. He's free to do what he wants. My beliefs should not be more important than his.

Anyway, I am sorry that you had to go through that, but it does sound like the best thing for you. If you're not compatible now, I have a feeling it'd have only gotten worse from here. Hang in there, girl!!!

Yeah thanks! I have dated guys who have had strong beliefs before but they never tryed to but them on me. I used to date this nice jewish guy once and he was fine with the fact that one of my fav meats are prawns XD That's dating for you I suppose better to find out you don't get along first before you move on to bigger things like marrage. Ugh that would suck marrying someone you can't stand!

[Rhyela]

Haha, exactly. And I think that's why the divorce rate is so high here in the states.

[cowmuflage]

I'm watching a show on Discovery channel called Curiosity:why is sex fun? and um seems orgasms are good for our brains and that they help us get with baby. O.o so ladies you want a baby have lots of orgasms! But I think with you mans stuff inside you would help XD Seems that it moves the sperm to the egg faster thus making it more likely to get inside the egg.

[Miyon]

Well that makes my hope of ever being able to have a child, when we find the time is right, really slim.

[cowmuflage]

Well that makes my hope of ever being able to have a child, when we find the time is right, really slim.

Well you can have a child with out having one it just helps thats all.

[Miyon]

Aw, it got me worried.. xD Let's just hope I don't have one before it's time.

[Miyon]

I think I have a period incoming. I have this burning sensation in the lower region of my stomach.

[cowmuflage]

I beleave I just broke my vibrater XD How the hell did I do that over use I guess XD

[Miyon]

I have broken many, but more slitting the cord than actually breaking the vibrator itself apart. It's annoying though, because it's the good ones that go to hell first.

Couldn't be arsed to double post.. But my god what is wrong with me? Another one on my friends list on facebook is gonna pop out an ugly wrinkled raisin, and god knows why I am so bitter, but it would probably please me if something went wrong. I am a horrible person. I never liked her though (she's a whore, or at least used to be), but that still doesn't justify my feelings.

[cowmuflage]

I'm posting it here just cos it's bodily etc.

So since yesterday I've been haveing this feeling like I want to go loo but then we I go to the loo I don't do anything. It's quite anoying really I'm proberly constipated I have not been in years (well before I had my stomach surgery and ever since then well it's never felt the same. Seriosly going loo feels differnt now XD)

Yup I'm going to wait and see before I do anything no point in takeing any meds till I can be sure right? I useally go poop once a day or so >.>

[Miyon]

Have your diet changed any? Have you been stressed out a lot?

[cowmuflage]

Have your diet changed any? Have you been stressed out a lot?

Well I have been stressed a lot in the last couple of weeks not being able to find a job is getting to me.

[Miyon]

That could very well be the cause for an eventual constipation.

Also, 2nd period this month. I have been through this before, months ago. It's probably just the birth control I use, and it's not really bothering me, although, either give me my period regularly, or not at all.

[cowmuflage]

That could very well be the cause for an eventual constipation.

Also, 2nd period this month. I have been through this before, months ago. It's probably just the birth control I use, and it's not really bothering me, although, either give me my period regularly, or not at all.

Oh XD

That's no good! No one wants more than one of those! Yeah one or none

[Miyon]

The worst part of it is that I have no pads, nor have I any tampons.. I only have those small pad like things for regular use, and they don't hold anything.. xD Since it's about three months since the last time I bled (I almost wrote bred), I have completely forgotten to buy new ones..

[Rhyela]

My period is late. Today is day 30 (technically 31, but I haven't gone to bed yet so I'm still counting today as Monday ). My last two were early, so I'm not surprised that this one is late. They've been all boogered up since I started taking the 150 mg dose of Clomid. I'd love it if I was pregnant, but I'm pretty certain I'm not. The longest I've gone between periods before is 33 days so technically this isn't too unusual for me (normally they are 26 days apart though).

Bleh. Bleh, I say!!! At least I just bought a jumbo pack of pads. I've pretty much stopped using tampons, they somehow make my cramping worse. Don't ask how, 'cause I don't know.

[Rhyela]

I mis-counted. Today is day 30, not yesterday when I made the above post. And the last time my period was late was not 33 days, but 30. So this one is as late as my last late one. Did you get all that?

Of some curiosity is that at around 4:00 a.m. today, I was awoken by horrible nausea. I am thinking it was the Chinese food I ate, but it wasn't accompanied by cramps, diarrhea, gas, or any of those usual food poisoning symptoms. It was just plain ol' nausea. Pretty bad nausea, too. I haven't felt that bad since I caught my husband's stomach flu after our wedding (yeah, he was sick at our wedding, good times). I couldn't sleep. I took some Nauzene chewable tablets (those things are awesome, I swear), sat in the bathroom for a few minutes until it started to calm down, and crawled back in bed.

I mean, I know our chances are so low (between my infertility and his infertility) that I'm trying not to get my hopes up. But late period, strange early-morning nausea.....it's hard not to hope. No boob or nipple swelling or darkening, though. They are a little sore on and off, but not constant and not to the point that they feel like they're going to explode or anything. Maybe it's too early for that. I haven't had a heightened sense of smell or aversions to anything, either.

I am going to keep telling myself that my period is going to start this week (either overnight tonight or tomorrow), and all this crap is just funky PMS and I'm not pregnant and possibly never will be. But I can't help but feel a tiny glimmer of hope.

I guess the only thing I can do is see if I get nauseous like that again, and if my period still hasn't started by the weekend, I'll have a pregnancy test done on Monday. And not the home test kits, either, the blood one.

What sucks is that I haven't been able to have my progesterone levels checked since November. I had two periods in December, the first on cycle day 18 and the second on cycle day 23, and I'm supposed to get my levels checked on cycle day 24. Since they were both early, they just had to put me back on the Clomid and tell me to come back next time. Well, this month I was able to make it to the lab, but then I had forgotten I switched to my husband's insurance and didn't have his card yet, so they said I couldn't test. Therefore, I have no idea if this 150 mg dose is working or not.

Some other things have happened this month that seemed a tiny bit weird, but not like OMG PREGNANCY weird. First, I was having some lower abdominal pain at the tail end of what I assume is my ovulation period (now I have no idea since my periods have been so early). On this medicine, I had ovarian pain but it was before and at the beginning of ovulation, not after. I started feeling PMS-like symptoms around day 16 like increased hunger and fatigue (which I figured was a combination of PMS and me being fat and lazy). Last week, all week (and I think the end of the week before), I was craving pickles and other vinegary foods like you wouldn't believe. For the past week and a half or so, I've also been having a lot of discharge (so much at some points that I thought it was my period starting). Then this week my period still hasn't come and then I got nauseous this morning. Also, I've been having cramping that feels like period cramping, but not as intense or long as normal.

/sigh. I know this all sounds pretty good, but I just know my luck isn't that good. I know it's going to take years for it to happen, if ever. So why can't I stop thinking about it?

Hopefully my period will start tonight or tomorrow and I can tell my husband and all my friends that yet again, it was a false alarm and we can all go back to our regularly scheduled lives.

And here I had just decided that I wanted to back to school to do echocardiology (ultrasounds of the cardiovascular system), and that I was going to go ahead and put off having a baby. That would just be a wonderful irony if I ended up getting pregnant now.

Sorry this post is so long, by the way. As you can tell, I have a lot on my mind. I honestly don't care if I'm not pregnant, I had already accepted that it could take a long time. I just want to know one way or the other.