Hey there..long time rant reader first time ranter(I promise I'm not a rant-reading creep

) Here's a rant I've been holding in for SO. LONG. Warning: most likely swearing (spacebar also fails so hard.)
My dad. Just. My. frickin'. DAD. He's such a whiner, he always thinks he's right, and always gets his way, even though he's WROONNG.
This morning I put my dishes in the sink. Ya know, so when more dishes go in I'll clean them all at once. He comes in and says "Why are there dishes in the sink?" Uh, obviously to wash them? "Well, do you know WHY we LEAVE dishes in the sink?" Uhm yes. To WASH them? "WRONG! You only leave dishes in the sink when there's a fire." ...What? Just what? ...I don't even..whatisthis. I didn't think there were freakin' rules for dish washing. That's not the only time he's said something so. incredibly. stupid. There have been plenty of times when he'll tell me how wrong I am for random stupid things, even though sometimes I'M ACTUALLY RIGHT. And my poor mother has to deal with this, too. Sometimes he'll make the dumbest freaking arguments EVER. "Well, when you make fish, you do it MY way, blahblahblah.." FISH. HE HAS ARGUED BECAUSE OF FISH, DAMMIT. EVERYTHING HAS TO REVOLVE AROUND HIM. Sometimes, when they argue, he will literally go into his room and POUT. HE WILL POUT. It's just so ridiculous I can't deal with it..but UUGHHH. Sometimes I feel like he's a grown up man-baby. Even seeing people to discuss problems, and find different ways to handle them won't work. He NEVER takes their advise because he always thinks his way is the best. I CAN'T FLIPPIN TAKE IT.
GOD that felt so good. Sorry this is soo long but another rant below this incoming, again,language possible warning.
Most of my life I've suffered bullying, (I don't know if personal things are a no-no here but, yolo.) Just skipping up to now, I've lost so many friends, or should I say 'friends'. I've been told I was only used to pass the time, or I was never a friend, I was just used for the little money I have and for benefits (Not those benefits, I mean like seeing movie without THEM paying, etc). I rarely leave the house!(bullying reasons) I've lost so many friends.. Why did it all have to happen to me? My brother is Mr. Perfect with them, though. He has so many friends, a good job, art talent. What do I have? I have a LITTLE art talent, but my dad always compares his work to mine, saying I should be more like him. NO..PLEASE. NO. I just want to sit here, draw with terrible skill, and sew random plushies that he deems "too creepy for a girl to make" (they aren't even that scary! I'm not like a super perfect creepy-maker but come on..) The only friends I have now are all online, they know what it feels like to go through similar things. Sometimes I just want to cry, I have so many problems. I'm just a waste of time and space, I still don't know why anyone chose to talk to me, online and offline. I miss my old old self. I was so ignorant, I didn't care about opinion or judgement. I was so..happy. I rarely feel that feeling for REAL. Not just a simply smile..no, I can't even smile after all that's happened. I just can't.
ENDRANT/FEELING SPILLS. Sorry this is so long, feel free to ignore it. But, figured it's a RANT thread, I REALLY needed to get this off my chest. At least I feel abit better, hahaa.eh.
