I feel like a bad person :/

[CrystalKitten]

so, we got out developmental marks back, and I did better than I'd though. A LOT better considering I felt I did worse than the midterm than I nearly bombed (still passed that one.. but.. not by much)...

So I get into class, and ask the person I sit next to and sometimes hang out with on break (some people would say friend, I'm REALLY picky with that term...) if she saw her mark. While she's looking it up I'm talking about how I did relatively well... 72.5%... Not great, but I'm happy cause at least it was above the average, and I'm always happy to be above the average, and even if I'd prefer a higher mark (80s would be nice), beating the average is an indication to myself that I'm doing "well".

So.. then this person sees her mark.. And she didn't beat the average :/ And while glancing at the door/around in my ADD fashion.. I think she's really upset about it...

I feel bad for going on about mine and "it's not great, but at least I beat the average!"

[GormanGhaste]

My impression from your post was that as you felt you had done poorly, your reasonable assumption was that she had a better mark than you. I know you would have said different things if you had known, so don't beat yourself up over it.

[CrystalKitten]

Well, once I saw my mark, I realized it wasn't so bad. I'm relatively happy with what I got.. Better would be nice, but I was happy about it. Before I saw it, I thought it would have been a LOT worse though.. So I was talking about it in a "it didn't seem so bad" kind of method... Talking about all that stuff.. then she saw hers :/ And I felt pretty bad.

Especially since she ended up going to "get other stuff done" on break instead of coming to hang out in the atrium :/

I feel bad.. but when I get excited/happy I get all chatty and wanna talk about it I can't really help it

[Magli]

Back when dinosaurs roamed the earth and I was in college, we were getting the results back from a particularly nasty exam. The professor passed out a solution sheet before handing the tests back. There was a little distribution of grades at the bottom of the page which peaked around 37%, with a little spike at 80.

John, in the back of the room, asked loudly, "Who's the asshole who got the 80?"

About a minute later he spoke up again: "Oh. *I'm* the asshole who got the 80."


The topic of discussion at lunch afterwards was how to kill off John to make sure he didn't wreck the curve on the final. We decided that setting him on fire and dropping him into the gorge would be the best way to go. So...what I'm trying to say is, it could have been a lot worse.

[CrystalKitten]

Haha. Yeah... See, here, they post that info online. They also don't bell curve here (the best you get is if the stats show that a few questions did REALLY bad, the prof will sometimes just remove them from the final overall grade). But yeah, I definitely wasn't the best in the class :/ But, I DID do better than half the class :/

I'm also extremely socially awkward. I'm told I sometimes talk too much about some stuff, but it's not out of a desire to do so.. it's because I like talking about some things, and I don't always know when to shut up.

[Lisaara]

Aw hun. You did fine. Just maybe offer to be her study buddy or something.