**FYI: There will be some mild swearing in this post. I don't usually resort to foul language but I'm just so full of rage atm and desperately need a safe outlet in which to express myself.**
Bullies ... I fucking hate them! I've dealt with them my whole life! First with kids at my school and then with my parents at home. I always thought the tormenting would eventually end when I became an adult ... but it hasn't. Adult bullies are just more methodical and cunning with their methods - they're not just out to hurt, they mean to destroy! I wish I could somehow round them all up into a coral and exterminate them but I can't! All I can do is wipe away the tears, and secretly pray that karma comes back to bite them in the ass!
You'd think at age 33, I should've developed a thicker skin and/or been able to stand up for myself by now, and in most cases, I have. The particular bully which has fueled my angst today though is a demon of a lady that comes into shop at my place of business. She's not the only bully I deal with in my life right now but she certainly is one of the worst! I have had the worst luck when it comes to avoiding her and she will go out of her way to make my day a living hell. I am not her only victim and have shared/swapped stories with my fellow associates! My managers are fully aware of this woman but are unable to take any actions since she does not use any physical violence toward us. The first couple of times when I assisted her, I was able to brush off her nastiness. Now, I seriously just want to quit my job (which I love otherwise).
I am not as strong as most of my fellow co-workers. My being more sensitive than most is my "Achilles heel" in these types of situations. Maybe, being bullied almost my entire life has had something to do with that. But I can't help it; I just take too much shit to heart!
I secretly wish she'd just die already (I know this makes me sound like a monster - I'm sorry). She's a pathetic excuse for a human being and needs a healthy dose of humility. Perhaps if she were to be knocked down from her pedestal of superiority just once, she can come on down to the real world for a sec or two and realize how much of a bitch she truly is! No one deserves to be treated like crap, especially those of us in the unfortunate position of working in customer services/relations!
<let's out a deep sigh> Ok, I think I got most of it out now. I seriously just needed to let that all out! Everyone I've talked to about her says I need to find ways of getting passed it but I find myself struggling with it sometimes. As long as I continue to work where I do, and as long as she continues to shop there, I don't feel there's much else I can do
