Syleye wrote:This may be a bit long, but right now I feel horrid and stressed and worthless and like a failure. I am the GL and RL for the guild I am in. I inherited the RL position and later the GL position back in Wrath. I try hard to keep a decent raid team going but more important to me is to have a guild that tolerates each other and the fact the life exists outside of WOW. We raid fairly regularly but I do not punish people when their lives interfere. I want this to be a safe place an have fun. Never ever have I promoted the guild as a raiding guild. Tonight I had someone I consider a friend walk out because I wasn't catering the extreme few "raiders" in the guild. I know my guild and holidays are never good for us for raiding. It just frustrates people because we miss too many of our core team, add a new expac and people wanting to enjoy the leveling and gear up process and it looks like raiding will be put off until Beginning of January.He sits there and tells me how lousy it is that i cater to a core group of people and don't allow people to raid who want to. ( I always allow raiding with other guilds when we are on break) and then goes off about how there isn't even any organizing of heroics and such. Mind you I have been sick for over a week and have spent the past month taking my son back and forth to the hospital. I cannot do everything all the time. To make it worse he's a fucking hypocrite. When we were raiding he was the flakiest one in the bunch towards the end he was there 1 time in a 2 month period to raid spent the time on screwing around in LFR. I snapped at him and he told me to calm the fuck down, I was so pissed at that point I basically told him not going to happen and then he goes off how he's ignored ( not once has he said shit to me about this) and I pointed out every time I have asked him to run with me becuase I hate tanking for strangers he has been afk or some other damned thing. He got pissed and gquit, I kicked the rest of his toons...which killed me I haven't kicked someone in years.....just so fucking worhtless right now can't even keep the drama out of the guild anymore FUCK
He just sounds like a jerk - don't stress about him. If ppl really wanted to do heroics they can organize them too - why is it always up to you to do everything? They can put a grp on the calender the same as you right? If ppl want to raid theres plenty of pugs on grp finder as well. If hes such hot shit im sure they won't kick him BUT you are not worthless. You do a thankless job that no one else has the balls to do and be proud of that.
Castile wrote:Just as i was starting to enjoy MM...nerf bat to aimed shot...sigh. #firstwowissues
They are nerfing aimed shot? D: but like that's the thing we use the most next to steady shot!
10% nerf
UGH. Like MM is the only hunter spec I like and WoD made us kinda shitty :S
Also I have a hard time believing that governments don't torture people. I'm pretty sure the higher ups who say they don't do it would say it was if it happened to them!
Long rant inc (feel free to ignore this I just need to get it off my chest badly!!)
Also warning of unnecessary swearing D:
So since around June of this year I have been feeling heavily suicidal, and yes for real reasons shocking! Bills, work, social life, gaming life and just everything else in general has been building up and tonight I cracked. Normally I come off as a happy care free problem solver for every one I know or even come in contact with, since hey we all have bad days it's nice to let some steam out now and then. But tonight I just can't anymore ... The past few months have been a living hell for me thinking about it makes me sick to the stomach and well gaming is no longer a relief from it all but more of a issue >.<
I'm in my early 20's and life just seems so ... I don't even know ... I cry myself to sleep every night, and that's when I can actually sleep most nights awake being sick or worse. And like most I used WoW as a distraction from it all like something I could do for 5 hours a day and just relax have some me time and just forget all my problems for 5 hours ... But thanks to WoD and sadly some of the playerbase that just isn't happening. My play time is now me sitting in my garrison explaining basic shit to people. Now you might be thinking 'Oh they are new you should be nice to other players.' NO! These people are raiders who want to aim for realm top 5 at least or some bullshit like that since clearly rankings still equal penis size or something dumb. But yes anyways I spent my time leveling in WoD through the lag and such with no real hate about it just now and then saying on TS "Awwww I wanted to finish this quest." But noooo that's me complaining ... Then reporting bugs to my friends who were also in the TS channel since I was a little ahead of them and didn't want them/knew they didn't want to try do something for hours to Google it and find out it wasn't working when I could just tell them ... Guess what? That is also complaining ... Like when waiting for a mob to spawn for a quest I wasted like a hour trying to get a rare mini pet because fuck moving on. I was playing and enjoying the game. But nope I was just complaining about every little thing. Funny right? But the dude sitting on TS insulting guild members just because they got 100 before he did? Like what? Bitching about lag every 2 minutes? Saying 'WELL ON BETA' all the fucking time? Like I can't think of one nice thing this dude has said in months .... And 'm the one complaining? Like HE FUCKING BITCHED ABOUT 3 SHAMS AND 4 HUNTERS IN A FUCKING NORMAL FUN GUILD RUN?! WTF Like omfg dude shut the fuck up already please D: Then he bitched to the GM of my guild that I had him on ignore ... Not like half the guild has him there to including on TS, yet I do it and I have to remove him off my list why? OH he wants a fucking glyph and refuses to give me mats even though he knows all my herbs and two other guildies herbs are being used to learn all the fucking glyphs and making fucking decks ... Oh you want me to go to the AH and buy you the herbs when I am in a fucking que (at the time warspear would pause your que.)
So now I hate my guild and the game since I can't even play the fucking way I want like ooooo the sims say MM is top? Really so why am I beating the other hunters? Oh that's right I'm not MM and dumb enough to go the wrong fucking talents and actually know what the fuck I'm meant to do!? Oh I wasn't top since hunters were meant to be on adds and I was the only fucking one doing adds? Oh cute ...
Real life shit omfg, so I live in a house with two idiots who have their over weight friends around 24/7 (please read on before you jump on the 'fat-shaming' shit with me!) THEY BREAK SHIT! My computer chair is fucked since it can only hold around 13 stone? These kids are more then 13 stone ... Like they get sick a lot mainly due to their weight and shit ... So yeah my computer chair broke so if you sit in it 60% chance it will keep going backwards till you fall outta it or something snaps and now I'm so fucking paranoid it's going to break when I'm sitting in yey! They also broke my toilet seat ... Yeah did anyone bother to tell me? Nope found out on my own also shit myself hahaha funny since I was in a good place to do so .... They eat takeaway everytime they come here and then don't put it in the bin then I find it three days later ... Yeah rotten food SHOVED down the side of my sofa awesome ... They man-handle my two cats which like yeah ok they don't know how to handle animals but I have sat and taught them how to pick them up and carry them but NOPE! GONNA RAG THOSE FUCKERS AROUND BY THEIR LEGS ... So now I can't leave them alone with my cats in fear they will either, break their legs or feed them something deadly ... Since yes cats are meant to eat your greasy ass takeaway ... That won't harm them ... Also they smoke near my cats. I won't lie I smoke in my house sometimes when its like 4am or something but if the cats are in the same room as me I'll go off into another room shut the door and open a window. I choose to smoke my cats have not ... Please fucking respect that. Between the bottles left all over to one of them spilling a drink over some cards (that are not mine or everything anything I care about but omfg what the hell?!) Like just how do these people live ... OH RIGHT YEAH! They have Mummy and Daddy to clean up after them ... What do I have? Two useless house mates who when I do get to go away to hang out with friends can't change a cats fucking water bowl great ... And I will now have to start taking them with me ... Two cats, on a bus, in winter ... Yeah that will go amazing.
On top of that I told one of them who says he is madly in love with me that I wanted to die like for real reals. Like I had sat and planned it had direct debts ready to go out of my bank account to all my bills to be closed and letters sent out by the providers to say sorry for your loss and how to change the details into their names, letters to my few friends who I would like to think would give a shit if I just magically vanished off the face of the earth saying how sorry I was for what I had done but hoped they could understand why and not be sad over the loss. Then again most people thought I was dead for 7 years so why the fuck I bothered who knows?! But the fact still stands that I can tell people face to face that I need help and I can't do this on my own since I know my heads gonna stop me and make me do some dumb shit that leads to my death ... But wanna know what I get? I get to be made to feel like shit like I'm the one in the wrong, that I am useless and killing myself is a great idea ...
I find it hard enough to get outta bed in the morning and fake this happy shit.
There is another person who recently reappeared in my life to, says he still loves me and regrets they way he treated me when we were going out when we were teens, sent me messages saying how madly in love he was with me, how he would do anything for another chance. How all that bullshit goes ... So I give him another chance, fuck knows why maybe due to the amount of Stoners in the area I live rubbed off on me ... Turns out as always it was lies and I mean fucking nothing it was just another sick game with him and I mean nothing ... To anyone.
I'm here just to be a punching bag per say ... I'm just a easy fucking target to be used and when people are bored then I get left alone to my own devices. And now I just looked at how much I wrote and hope to whatever is holy people just scroll passed it. Sorry for wasting your time but it is what I'm good at.
Also Blizz why touch MM, I don't like MM but let it have its moment my god it was nice even if I get forced to play it D:< Fucking hate raiding now \o/
the lfg for molten core wait time 2 hours now and nothing
HUGE thanks to Makoes, Syleye, FeralClaw, Pingupuff, Karin,Bowno, Varethyn, Ashaine, Kishay, Aki (Täräin13), my friend Marie and some lovely ppl on Fligth Rising for my lovely sig
G'damnit why can I only have three dragons on a team? ;_;
I MEAN, SHUVY IS MY MAIN, MY TEAM LEADER. But then my River dragon is nice, I like her.... and I'm trying so hard for a Predatory dragon so I know it's gunna be on my team once I have it. Boom, there, three!... but then that's not much elemental diversity. So maybe I gotta add some other types. I like the look of Sea dragons, they're like spinosauruses! And I like LightMagic dragons..... And I like Twilight dragons, and Gryphon dragons, and Butterfly dragons and Faerie dragons and dragon dragons I like dragons.
<rants about how she wants so many dragons in a friggin Facebook game it's like the "I like every kind of cat" video, but with dragons>
And my costume drama continues...after telling me they would ship wednesday (after me begging in e-mail to send it that day or the next - this was monday AFTER they sat on the order for two weeks and did nothing) I checked the DHL tracking and it was shipped TODAY (thursday) like wtf!! Now it defiantly won't get here before saturday which makes it kinda useless and me very upset and angry. My only hope is the back-up i had to buy just in case comes tomorrow or I'm totally sunk. This was meant to be something fun I had look forward to and now ergh....
Junrei wrote:I'd be giving the maker a low review on communication and keeping deadlines.
Yep left a detailed review on Trustpilot - there's stories on there too but reviews kinda go from one extreme to the other...from awesome fast service to poor quality and no communication. My first order was perfect and fast so I just don't get why they were so awful on this one. Oh well
Hey...hey FuckKnight.....You saw me running back and forth between the grubs. I'm not leaving my spot cause you decided to be a fucking fuckface and trying to tell ME to leave when I've been there for the last hour. Fuck the hell off.
Also, my 3DS is well and truly dead. It would cost 110 pounds easily for 'maybe if we replace all the parts...' fix. Anyone got a sledgehammer or 125 bucks?
Sofia, the remarkably purple spirit cat as drawn by Ket Shi.
Junrei wrote:You can buy a used 3DS. Just don't get one thats 'Refurbished' or whatever. That just means something was wrong with it and they attempted to fix it.
There's little itty bitty grubs by the pet trainer in Gorground that respawn like crazy.
Yeah, I'm keeping my eyes open for one.
I'm 300 dollars short of making it home. I'm so tempted to go stand outside with a sign...
Sofia, the remarkably purple spirit cat as drawn by Ket Shi.
man Molten core at lvl 100 was disapointing... 4 hours in a que to get in, ONE boss drops loot... and nothing graphically have changed... not impressed
HUGE thanks to Makoes, Syleye, FeralClaw, Pingupuff, Karin,Bowno, Varethyn, Ashaine, Kishay, Aki (Täräin13), my friend Marie and some lovely ppl on Fligth Rising for my lovely sig
BUT you are not worthless. You do a thankless job that no one else has the balls to do and be proud of that.
Sofia, the remarkably purple spirit cat as drawn by Ket Shi. 
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