My departure.

[Sarayana]

Only problem is it's hard to let go of Fionita because I've leveled her, she's got awesome pets, and she's the highest toon I have atm. I don't have the guaranteed safety to transfer her to another realm because it costs money and my dad will end up knowing about it.

Well, you could just explain that you'd like to move servers to play with friends. Of course he might still say no, seeing as it is quite a bit of cash - but if that's the case, I'd say reroll her. Get her back up, get her pets back, make it a project to make her as good as she is right now. That's what I'd do.

[kamoodle5]

I don't mind making the most of it Nesingwary. In amongst the two months I've leveled Fionita, I've completely forgotten about Agnas in Madoran because I have no more friends there. If I could afford to transfer my toons to elsewhere, Agnas would be first. For the time being though, I do enjoy the fact of having three toons in three different realms; it does give a good excuse to make more hunters and get more pets. Besides, all the normal realms are pretty much the same; just different names and maybe a slightly different environment. Yet, the gameplay, the concept, and the plots of what we do is all alike. Almost hard-to-say monotonous.

Also, I know I shouldn't jump to conclusions, especially with Ryno, but I have been seeing him online lately on his druid, which is why I am saying he isn't returning my response. He's probably busy, which makes a lot of sense but it shouldn't take much time just to make a tiny response if anything at all.

[kamoodle5]

Sorry for the double post.

I am still feeling less of the love here even if I haven't posted much, but maybe it's for a good reason. As much as I don't want to prove being a loner, I have been finding myself posting less because of a bit of scolding I am now getting or if I find what I thought was my great reach-for-the-stars ideas for topics then later noticing someone already uncovered that idea. Maybe I'll still hang around, but I am going to stop responding in anything. Got to fight the temptation to post now. Also, I will have to cease the offer of helping. Lately, and it's not just here too, I get scolded or don't get appreciated when I offer a hand in anything, and believe me, I want to help. I always love to help. I must be the appendix if I get shoved away like this, which seems to describe me well actually, and yet there IS something the appendix is proven slightly useful of.

Anyway, I will eventually stop posting altogether, but I might hang around just to read some really interesting topics, like some more out of Crappy Groups if that's okay. Thanks so much to Teigan and Skarm for trying to keep me company in their realm before my card expired, and a big thanks for Teigan for keeping in contact with me by YIM. I appreciate that very well.

[Dewclaw]

Did you send a pm or an in-game mail? If it was a pm, try an in-game mail, and see if you get a response.

[kamoodle5]

You mean the ingame mail I sent to Ryno? Well, it doesn't matter now since I haven't been ingame for over a week now. I was hoping for something before my game card expired.

[Teigan]

Maybe I do have a bit of a problem, but if I let my dad know I wanna see a therapist, he's gonna wonder where I got the idea.

I missed this part the first time around...now, girl...Your father loves you right? Seems from what you've said that you have a decent relationship with your family. Now, in this day and age there is not nearly the stigma attached to seeing a counselour. I have done it. Skarm has done it. We gone to one together. My Mom has done it, two of my best friends in the world still do it (and I wish to god the other one had! )
So, if you feel you need to ask your dad, just ask. Explain to him why and that no, it doesn't make you crazy, you just want to work on...say, stress managment. Seeing you just graduated and will be looking for your first real job and place, stress management might not be too far from the truth! Does it matter where you got the idea? Say you read an article in a magazine if you don't want to say you got it on Petopia.
If money is an issue, there are usually income based services available. Even here, out in the middle of nowhere we have them.
You don't have to tell all. You don't have to talk about stuff you don't want to talk about. It might help, but you talk about what you want to talk about to a completely non-judgmental person who is removed from your social group (so there is no awkwardness later). It can be extremely refreshing and he or she can help you with stress management and all kinds of stuff.

[Saturo]

Aye, if you feel that you need to see a therapist, then go see one. Your family will understand. There's absolutely nothing to worry about, as long as you don't get my old shrink. Most psychologist-people don't bite, the exception being previously mentioned. :D

They want to help you, their salary depends on making you feel better. If they don't do their best, they starve. That's how you tell a good doctor from a bad doctor. :P

[Mania]

Now, in this day and age there is not nearly the stigma attached to seeing a counselour. I have done it. Skarm has done it.

I've gone to a therapist also. She helped me get through a tough period last year. Just having someone to talk to was a huge relief.

[kamoodle5]

Hate to sound like a nasty Nancy, but now I am feeling worse. From what I hear, it almost makes you guys think I am crazy, almost insane. That is not right. I make a topic and get a suggestion to see a doctor? Maybe I should've just left the forums here and not say a word about it. That would've made me feel loads better without hearing what I'd rather not hear. I'd rather be called a loner than insane.

[Vephriel]

The community here is only trying to be helpful and offer you advice. If you're going to continue to take that attitude with absolutely everything anyone brings up or suggests then there's really not much we can do for you.

[cowmuflage]

Jeez man these posters are just trying to help you by giveing you suggestions you don't need to bite there heads off.
Edit that wasnt directed at you vep lov.!

[kamoodle5]

I would like someone to delete this topic please. I've done enough damage as I can produce.

[Siliverin]

I dont think anyone is saying your are crazy or insane, i think they are just saying if you really feel this sad and lonley maybe talking to someone with a degree in things like that can help u feel less lonley or sad. I mean my sister never knew she had bipolar till one day she got so down i had to take her to a clinic and when they told her she was like " no its just mood swings and normal stuff and they said no. You are bipolar" Not saying anything is wrong with you, i know i get my moments where i am so down its not even crazy. i am a very shy person in RL as well always have been. I have to agree with veph. I dont feel anyone is saying you are crazy, insance, etc. Just if you need someone to talk to a theripist can help and they will always listen. Or even if there is someone in your family talk to them. Talking helps alot. I always go to my dad when i am down and out. it helps alot and having a toddler, it can happen alot.

like i said, i dont think anyone thinks you are crazy, insane, etc. just trying to offer help. if someone thought that i am sure 20 to 1 they will say it striht out. i have had it done to me because i used to and still do have a very bad temper.. but comes with the heritage of mine -_-

[kamoodle5]

Better yet, the real therapist I'd feel better from is going to a nice vacation, which I am actually gonna do in a week from now, and I am gonna be gone for nearly two weeks.

Still though, I don't want to be proven insane just because I have some pretty bad stress levels sometimes even since I was in college.

[Vephriel]

For the record, suggesting a therapist has nothing to do with being 'insane'. They are people who can help you overcome a variety of personal issues, and truthfully I think it could help you. I'm not saying this out of maliciousness, I really do think that would be beneficial as you seem to paint over everything with a negative tone. I can't fathom why you always take things so personally, but that seems to be the core of the issue. You're creating these problems on your own, or fabricating mountains out of mole hills. There is no shame in asking for help if you truly go about life that way, I can only see you damaging yourself each time. Either that or its attention seeking behaviour, I really don't know which. All I know is that this 'damage' you always speak of only comes into existence because you bring it up yourself, and then you push anyone away who tries to help or understand you. And you can't go through life just deleting things from the past to cover them up.

I know this was a blunt reply, but I don't know how else to get through to you. I realize you'll probably take this the wrong way but I assure you I'm only trying to help you help yourself.

[cowmuflage]

I do find it kind of insulting of you for basicly makeing that anyone with a mental illness/disorder is "insane" as someone with 2 disorders i do find it insulting. Thats very 18th century to be calling ppl like that insane

[Dizzy]

i think you should stop trying to play the victim and stop thinking everyone is out to get you, especially since there's not one single post here that is in any way shape or form attacking you.

just take a breath and relax.

I've gone to a therapist too.

NOT because i'm crazy, just like nobody thinks you're crazy.

I was going through my parent's divorce (i was younger) and stuff like that.
there's nothing wrong with talking to someone who is unbiased and will give you straight good advice and who will help you.

nobody called you crazy, stop being on defense and let your friends, yes, i call these people your friends, because NOBODY other than your FRIENDS would go as far as these people to convince you that everything is ok and that nothing is wrong with you, let your friends help you.

and i'm not trying to be mean, but you seem to be avoiding that people are trying to help.

It's OK to be open.
it's OK to be vulnerable.
it's OK to have people care about you.
so let them.
Stop trying to be so defensive when nobody is even remotely attacking you :\

[kamoodle5]

I am in tears again. Even the AVGN isn't cheering me up now. I just want this topic to be deleted. I don't want this to go any further, please. I am really sorry. I am really sorry I've caused even more drama than I've done in Crappy Groups when all I wanted was to post what I thought sounded interesting. I mean, now, I know the difference between need and greed. If a therapist is what I need, then it's what I will get.

[Vephriel]

If you just refuse to accept help then I'm going to stop wasting my time trying to give it to you. As Dizzy said you're just playing the victim now with absolutely no reason to. I think it is insulting to these people who have come together to offer you aid and you just slap them away.

[kamoodle5]

I'm sorry.